summer camp.

20 | epilogue

Millies pov

✧four weeks later✧

"Black halter or red sleeveless?" Sadie asks, observing the new clothes that lay in front of her.

"Wear that green crop top, I really liked that one" I say, walking over to my bed where all of Sadie's new clothes are spread out.

"Hm yeah you're right. Oooh and these shorts too. Perfect!" Sadie exclaimed, looking proudly at the outfit she picked out for tomorrow.

"I'm going to model it for you. Be right back" Sadie says, grabbing the garments off my bed and rushing towards the bathroom. After she steps in and closes the door, I move aside the rest of the clothes and sit on the edge of my bed, crossing my legs. I open my night stand drawer and take out a pack of reds, flipping the top open and pulling a cigarette out.

Nasty habit I know, but It wasn't really a habit. I could stop if I wanted, it's just...it's stupid.

Tomorrow is the first day of school, which means summer is officially over and all the memories that were made will be just that. Memories.

Of course, coming home was a sigh of relief, I got to see my siblings and my dogs. Sadie and Caleb come over every day to make sure I'm not alone. They think I'm depressed or something but I can assure you I'm not. Of course, I'm sad, everyone is sad. This summer wasn't the easiest so I'm not going to be in a happy- loving life mood all the time.

No I haven't told my parents or siblings a thing. What am I supposed to say? I got assaulted at the camp that we all love so dearly? Yeah, no I don't want to have that conversation with them. Besides I'm totally over it, it's no big deal anymore.

Now the cigarette thing... yeah that's a different issue I'm dealing with. I find that I've been smoking more and more now that summer is officially over, trying to hold on to every little thing that reminds me of him. Once school starts I'll probably forget all about him. I'll probably even be too busy to smoke the cancer sticks that remind me so much of him.

I think about him all the time. The way we laugh, the way we cried, the way we kissed, and most importantly the way he made me feel. Something I've never felt for anyone. I try so hard to remind myself it was just a silly crush, but I know it wasn't. I know it wasn't because I've never cried so hard over a crush, I've never felt so deeply about a crush.

And here I sit, like I normally do, inhaling the smoke that I wish was shared with him. Staring off into the space in front of me that I wish was filled by him. I miss him... so much.

I keep telling myself that it's a new school year, which equals new boys, new relationships, new this, new that.

But I don't want new. I want that feeling back, I want summer back. Or maybe... I just want him back again.

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A/N
Who's ready for a sequel? Well as many of you know there will be a sequel to this story called "back again || fillie" and because I'm such a nice person, I'm going to be giving you a little taste of what you should expect.

Back again of course, will be based during the following school year, all of them are going into the tenth grade. I'm not going to tell you how Gaten and Finn end up with the rest of the gang because that's a crazy surprise that you'll have to wait for. Now what I will say is that no, Jack and Wyatt will not be in the sequel BUT there will be a new "Villain" who is a boy that comes into Millie's life. Millie will still be dealing with what happened to her during the summer, and she'll struggle to overcome it and learn to trust people again. Caleb and Sadie's perfect relationship might actually have a few flaws. Finn and Gaten find themselves in a scary and dangerous living situation, that also has negative effects on Millie. Noah will be in the sequel too and he'll have some issues with the new boy. Speaking of the new boy... well i'll leave that up in the air for now.

Thank you so much for reading my story and hanging on through this insane journey and don't worry, things are only going to get crazier. Till next time and remember, this wasn't just summer fling.

-Madds