Sorry... is not enough

brighter

Tommy's POV

She hesitated before she entered. I didn't understand why. She has been here over a hundred times... and yet she still looked like she could break down any moment. I felt horrible. I should have been there for her...

i followed her into the cemetery. once i enter, an overwhelming scent of death assaults my nose. even though i know bodies are buried 12 feet under, there is still the overhanging sense. i haven't set foot in here since mom left. i just couldn't bring myself to do it.

i admire my little sister. she came here once every year for each of them, even more for dad.i was such a coward, i never came here after mom left us. she didn't have to come, but she did. she always did. She carried this burden herself for 3 years, i hate myself. i stood behind a tree just listening. what could she possibly say to them, we didn't even know them that well. i thought.

"Tommy's getting better... i wish you two could see how he is now. He is much better than the last time i was here. i... i...it should have been me..." i heard nothing but sobs.

unknowingly i was walking towards her, my arms stretched out. i must have looked like a zombie, but at that point i didn't give a dam. i halt to a stop. if i did this now, she would know i followed her out here.

i wanteddesperately  to find my courage to just be there for her. Just like a promised...

Flashback

"Daddyyyyy... please come back... i'll be a good girl. Please." she was so broken.

"i will protect you lulu ,no matter what happens i wont let you be sad and cry"

we were at dad's funeral. she was bawling her eyes out, i hated seeing her like that.

"y-you pr-promise?" she stuttered through her sobs.

"I promise."

Flashback over

i promised... i fvking promised and i broke it.

"Tommy?"

that brought me out me trance. Looking at Luna now, i realized i had missed a crucial part of her life.

"What are you doing here?" She started walking.

"I'll drive you home." was all i could manage.

the drive home was silent...

Once we were home i finally spoke, breaking the silence.

"im sorry."

Luna's POV

i stopped dead in my tracks. i turned around slowly.

"Why?"

he didn't look at me. i stared at his mop of black hair, waiting for him to say something, anything. he just kept staring at the floor. A full minute passed and he finally spoke.

"im sorry for being such a shitty brother. im sorry for not being there for you. Especially, the last three years. im sorry i didn't stand by my promise to protect you. im sorry i didn't stand by the promise to never let you cry.

i should have been there for you. i should have. But i wasn't. Im sorry"he looked at me with tears in his eyes. he was sincere. i never saw him cry. the last time was at mom's funeral.

before i could say anything, my body just acted on its own. i wrapped my arms around him, just enjoying the silence.

"i didn't need an apology. i just needed my brother back." crystal droplets fall from my eyes. we stay in that position for a long time.

we didn't move until our tears had dried up. it was nice to know he was going to try to be my brother again.

the next day i happily skipped to school thinking about rainbows and unicorns. Just kidding. i dun do 'skipping'. But admittedly, i was in a good mood.

I couldn't believe i let myself think it was going o be a good day.

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HELLOOOOOO

i had writers block and couldn't continue, and just stopped.

_Maineyyyyy