♚Purposeful Hate♚|| joe sugg||

~waiting game~

Waiting is always the worst part of getting something you want, the anticipation of when you will finally get what you want, or maybe, what you don't want. Sometimes when it comes to the worst situations, it's all just a matter or waiting.

Simons pov
2 weeks. She's been out for 2 weeks. They saved her, she was dying, her heart on overload from the injuries. They said she should wake up soon, but they said that last week too. The guys and girls visit every 2 days, but usually one of the guys stays with me and one of the girls with Lea. They say she can hear us, but I think it's a load of crap. But nevertheless, everyday, I sit in her room and tell her about my day. How the nurse that checks my brain bleed always brings me a butterscotch pudding cup. I hate butterscotch, but it seems that every time she asks me what kind my mind switches to what Lea would want. Butterscotch being her favourite.
"Tobi told us Marisa is pregnant. But I'm sure you knew that. They said they are going to do a gender reveal when they find out. But that won't be for a few months. You'll be awake by then." I held onto her cold hand, the back of my mind wishing a miracle would happen and she would just wake up fine.
"I get released tomorrow. But don't worry, I'll stay with you all day." I assure my girlfriend, even though I know I won't get a response. My stomach clenches, and my nerves start to sizzle as the anger of the situation tingles it's way through my body. I clenched my good fist, and I'm sure my face was red. Suddenly all the anger turned to sadness and I found myself in tears, laying my head on her bed. At this point I didn't even care about an image that i was supposed to uphold as the snarky arrogant sidemen, I just let all the pain that was being held in about my girlfriend being close to death out.
"One time when we were little, well she was about 10 and I was about 15, she fell off the sea-saw and got knocked out. I was freaking out, thinking it was my fault that it happened. I thought josh was going to kill me. But she was fine a week later." Tobi spoke from the doorway, making me snap up from the sound of his voice.
"She's going to be okay, I really really hope she is simon. Because she may be your girlfriend but she grew up around me, and I love her like a sister. I don't want her hurt." He started to tear up, making me feel selfish for crying.
"We'll be okay too. We just need to stay calm together. Is josh here?" I asked as he sat down on the floor next to me.
"He doesn't know what to do. He's scared to tell mum and dad, and he doesn't know what he'll do if he comes up here." Tobi answered honestly and I nodded, looking back to lea. She looked like she was sleeping, making the whole situation so much worse, because if she was to die, it would be peaceful.
"Your gonna be a dad mate." I said, switching the subject. The topic brought a smile to tobi's face.
"I can't believe it. I can't wait. I thought I'd be scared, but it just seems like the right choice with Marisa." He sighed, and at that moment I knew we were all growing up. That anything can change in just a couple of months. It was all just how you played your cards and how you waited.
"Me and lea are counting the years we dated before. I mean, that was the last thing we talked about before the, the crash." I coughed out the words, and Tobi gave me a soft smile.
"Your all grown up kid." Tobi spoke, and I knew he wasn't talking to me.
"I remember you used to love me, when I was 16 and you were 11, you would tell me that you wanted to have a best friend like me. Lea, I'll always be your best friend. Don't give up on us." He started to sniff, his voice cracking, sending pains through my chest. A nurse walked in, giving us both a sympathetic look before checking her vitals. She turned to us, a small smile plastered on her face.
"Her vitals are great. She's stable. Any day she should wake up." She announced and I looked away from her, not believing what she was saying.
"You said that last week." I hissed to the lady and Tobi instantly apologized to her.
"I understand. But this week is now or never." She spoke and I snapped my head to look at her, narrowing my eyes.
"Now or never? That's how you put it?" I shouted and she instantly had a look of regret on her face.
"That's not what I meant sir. I'm just saying that this week would be the best time for her to wake up." She restated and I relaxed a little in my seat.
"Sorry for snapping I guess." I mumbled and she nodded before leaving the room, leaving me and Tobi alone with lea once again.
"I hate that we have to just sit here and wait. That this is all we can do is just hope for the best. They are doctors they should fucking know what's happening." I stated frustratedly, hitting my good hand against the arm of the chair. Tobi stood up, placing his hand on my shoulder and squeezing it.
"Come on man, you should get some sleep." He looked at me with big puppy dog eyes, and I started to melt against my chair at how soothing he was.
"Your a grey friend Tobi." I pointed out, standing up slowly and walking out the room with the short boy.
"I'll be here when you wake up. I'll bring you food when you get hungry." He assured and I just hummed as I layer down in bed, curling under the covers and closing my eyes. The last thing I remember before drifting off to sleep was someone coming into the room and whispering something to Tobi.

"Ms.Bradley just wiggled her toes."
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These hospital chapters are going to be amazing😂

So Tobi and simon had a little heart to heart. #minijzle