Poetry Readings

Alone

I have no friends, I feel as though I have no family. But that's not even the start of my insanity. Nor is the way people are using profanity or everything that's happening so far; oh the tragedy. The way I'm living life is expected and it had to be. Although being myself is not what I'd rather be.
The friends that I supposedly had, were never my friends. They weren't always there, I mean, at least not until the end. Even the "friends" I knew since I was ten. They've always been there for me, when?
I struggle and struggle, doing things on my own. No family to be around and support, so I'm doing wrong. The worst is when I feel like someone in my head is hitting a Chinese bong and just keeps ringing and ringing; I wanna be strong.
The thing is I couldn't because it was among the level of pain that I just wanna run. Away is where I wanna run, so far away and be alone so I can have fun. I thought I had someone when I had none, but I'm not focused on it because I'm done. What I wanna so is be left alone anyway and be myself because I'm young. In my near future I can be alot on my own, a ton.

{3/2/17}