Poetry Readings

Sleep Paralysis

It's a combo of sleep paralysis and apnea.
😇MizzyMommi😇

My eyes are closed and I'm thinking of nothing... Absolutely nothing. I never know why, I just can't. I can see light, it must be time to wake up. Wait. I can't even open my eyes. I'm struggling to open them. It feels like they're glued shut, tightly shut.

Is my throat closing up on me? It's getting harder for me to breathe. Its like something is stuck in my throat. I can't even cough.

My chest hurts, it hurts. Why is my chest hurting? There's too much pressure on my chest, at least it's what it feels like. It feels like someone's sitting on me. I can't move, why? Am I strapped down? Something has to be holding me down.

My eyes are cracked. That's good, but I'm asleep, still?

I still can't move.

I can hardly breathe.

I'm panicking. Calm down.

Just say something, there's mom.

*inhale* *exhale*

What?! I can't sat anything. My voice is stuck. My mouth won't even open, it won't move. Am I paralyzed?

What's going on?

I want to cry, I'm scared. A tear snuck down my face, slowly. I can cry? And breathe, hardly, and suffer.

I close my eyes back only to open them, what seems like a century later. Only to gasp for air as if I was dead or drowning.

What happened to me? I felt...gone...

{6/4/17}