Unwise

dEaTh nOtE ?

While you view me as your lover I'm loving the idea of seeing you in front of my eyes, inches away from my grasp & lasting forever & ever

Meanwhile I feel trapped in such a love that has change from what it once was so I see you as my prison mate rather than someone I'd make love to

So when you say the words "I love you" in the back of my mind I ask why but push myself to say "I love you too" instead, why should it be this way, I am only me

See the love I have for you runs deeper than any ocean or set mentality, so I hold on & fight for you, sometimes feeling as if I am the only one

& I feel myself falling into what I once was & I don't want you to be around to see, so I love you & I tried to set you free but I need you here

Never have I felt this way about anything of this nature & I try my hardest not to show it, the pieces
of me that are dying, the emptiness I feel inside

Here I am pushing you away & complaining about the state of loneliness I feel, but you cannot be my hero anymore, I am meant to be alone

Happiness I felt for a while has faded, my scars are again in my vision, it is blades I see in my future, do not fight for me, I am not worth it.