Ashley
I sat on the balcony smoking a cigarette until I heard Ali groan.
"Fuck my head is pounding." She said as I came in the room. I handed her a water bottle and some Advil. After she took it she rubbed her face. I stared at her, seeing her makeup messed up, and her eyes swollen from crying.
"I don't remember a thing Ashley." She suddenly says. It was quiet.
"Adam raped you." I say and her eyes widen.
"What?" Her voice cracked.
"I let you go out, Adam found you, got you really drunk, and raped you."
"Do not blame this on yourself Ashley."
"I let you out by yourself, how could I not blame myself?"
"It's not your fault. You didn't know he was gonna be here."
It was silence, all you could hear were our uneasy breaths. She scooted closer to me and placed her head in my shoulder.
"Is that all?" She asked quietly.
"That's all you told me when you came home." She took a deep breath. I suddenly felt my shoulder getting wet. I wrapped my arms around her. "Baby don't cry, it's not your fault." She continued to cry into my shoulder. We stayed there for a few minutes until she calmed down.
"I love you." I say forcing her to look at me.
"I love you too."
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It's been a few weeks after my EP was released. It's also been a few weeks since the incident. We haven't told anyone, knowing that would cause to much.
I heard the shower turn off, indicating that Ali was done, she came out in her towel looking for something to wear. She out a bra on, then underwear, taking the towel off. As she looked for her clothes in just the little piece of clothing I watched her.
And I noticed something.
And as soon as I saw it, my heart broke.
"Alaska, come here." She cringed as I used her full name. She walked her to me as I sat on the hotel bed. She stood in front of me, arms crossed, confused to as of why I called her over. I listed my hands and traced my fingers over her scars causing her to flinch.
Neither of us said a word. She winced as I touched the scars on her thighs. I took a deep breath, trying to figure out what to say. I finally found my words and spoke slowly.
"Why would you do this to yourself?" I continued touching her.
"I just, I was so miserable and I," her voice broke as she tried to speak. I kissed her thighs softly.
"You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable." I say as I left soft kisses on her scars. She didn't say anything after that. She stood there as I touched her, feeling every part of her skin I haven't touched or seen before. It wasn't sexual. It was reassuring touches. Reassuring kisses that I was here. That she doesn't have to hide herself from me anymore.
I placed one last kiss on her thigh before standing up.
"Let's get some clothes on you babe," I spoke quietly.
She got dressed, and I smiled at her.
"You don't have to tell me now, or you don't have to tell me at all, but I want you to know, I'm here and I want to help you." I say. She bit her lip and wrapped her arms around my neck, hugging me. I kissed her head softly.
"I'm here."
mY GIrlfrIEND is sTrAiGhT anD ShEs chEATing ON me WITh a bOY... wait so that means she's bi then
