I'm sorry too [Kendall Jenner]

2: Moving on?

"I'm asking you out, silly" she said as if I had some kind of stupidity inside me

"I-I don't know" I sighed imagining Val was the one on the other side of the door frame

"What you don't know?" She asked tilting her head to her left "are you straight? Cause I saw you on TV and you said you were gay, or are you just for one girl?"

I wasn't even sure if I was gay enough to date someone other than Val, okay, that sounded silly.

"I am gay" I started "but I'm not ready to be out there dating" I wanted to sound clear

"Okay..." she frowned "what if we make it casual?"

"I can offer you a friendship Emily" I said a little annoyed

"That'll do..." she turned around "for now"

"Hey" she came back

I looked at her with bored eyes

"I'm going to a friend's next Friday, come" it wasn't a question

"I'll think about it" I fake smiled, she winked and left, hopefully this time she'd came back until next Friday

"I'm telling you Koko, this girl is annoying the fuck out of me" I was lying on the terrace face up, absorbing all the sun I could

"Give it a try" was all Khloe said

"But Val" I whined

"Unless you plan on going back to her country and staying there while she recovers I'd advise you to move on" wow that was harsh

"Wow" was all I could say

"You need to hear the truth honey, is messed up but you left and didn't even gave her the chance to get to know you again" she was partly right

"I hurt her Khloe, I was afraid she would remember me and be angry for all the shit I did" it sounded stupid

"I know" she sighed in exhaustion

"I gotta go" I said not wanting to talk to her anymore

"Don't run away from his conversation, sooner or later we are going to have it"
I nodded

"But not today Koko" I hung up without another word

"Rude" was all she texted me

I was rude. I knew that, depression tends to turn nice people into some kind of villain. Believe me, my therapist still checks on me now and then to see if I still take my medication.

Gigi was supposed to come today but something delayed her, fashion month was starting next week and she was modeling. I was not. But they invited me to watch the shows, I had to choose which ones I was going to attend, Kylie was coming as well with Cara.

Maybe this could help me, and maybe I could invite Emily to come, she looks like she could enjoy the runways.

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"Kennyyyyyyyyyyy" Gigi ran to me embracing me in a tight hug "I misseeeeeeeed youuuuu"
I hadn't seen her since the Val-woke-up-and-forgot-about-me thing

"I missed you too" I whispered to her hair, feeling the embrace warming my soul

We drove to my apartment

"I'm staying closer to the runways in a pent" Gigi said entering the building "although this place looks niiiice"

It was, indeed. I had a three bedroom apartment with library, terrace and a huge living room. There was a Jacuzzi on each bathroom and a king sized bed in each bedroom, my mom hired an interior designer to make everything look fancy and expensive. She tried to make it feel like home.

Right, as if with a couple of paints and furniture I would feel less miserable.

But it didn't make me feel better, at all.

"Earth to Kendall" Gigi waved her hand in front of my face

"Sorry" I said smiling at her "Val" I said as if that name was the explanation for everything in my life

"You need to go out" she stood up "Call the girl" she signaled to the wall, in Emily's apartment direction

"I know you are going to give me an speech if I said that I'm still waiting for Val to come" I sighed

"I know" she sat next to me "and I also know you love that girl more than words could ever express, but you're 22 Kenny, you need to experience life and not to stay crying in here" she looked around

"But"

"No buts Ken, we are going out, you need a free night without thinking all the tragedies that happened in your life, forget about Valentina for a night, and tomorrow you can think of her again. Let's get wasted and return in the morning with no memory and a massive hangover"

She stood up and walked to my room

"What are you waiting for?" she asked "Come" and walked in

"Beautiful" she said eyeing me, she had chosen me a black silky short dress with lace on the edges making it look like a negligee. My faux fur coat covering me from the coldness left in the air.

"Call her" she ordered, and I did.

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"Very nice to meet you" Gigi offered her hand to Emily, she shook it and smiled, she looked kind of sexy with the half smile that was left in her face after she greeted Gigi.

I don't remember much after my 6th shot of tequila, but I have vague memories of some of the 'things' that happened because when I woke up with a sore head in the morning as I turned to stand from the bed a soft body bumped against my side, Emily.

(Emily Ratajkowski as Emily)