Loving Daisy

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That was the first time I got my stomach pumped.

I attempted to kill myself 6 times since then.

I stopped at 15, I can't escape this world.

She was always there. She stopped me.

Why did she keep stopping me?

It was clear as a blue sky, I wanted to die.

So let me.

I got up and got ready for school.

I threw on my leather jacket and grabbed my keys.

"Later." I mumbled as she grabbed my wrist and she stopped me.

"I'll drive you." She said firmly.

"No Patricia, I'm fine. I won't do anything, I promise."

"Please. Promise me, no killing yourself? Okay?" She said tearing up.

"I promise. Can I go now?" I said rolling my eyes.

I was now 16, starting junior year. Its been a year since I tried to kill myself.

"Yeah, good luck on your first day." She said giving me a kiss on my forehead.

"Good luck at work." I said giving her a small smile.

"Did you just smile at me?" She said with widened eyes.

"Bye." I said ignoring her comment and leaving.

I hopped into my car.

Once I arrived their whispers flooded the halls.

"What a freak."

"Didnt she try to kill herself?"

"She's crazy."

"Hey Rose." Danny said walking up to me.

"Hey." I said emotionlessly.

"I got us 3 tickets for the carnival, wanna come?" He said cracking me a toothy smile.

"Why not?" I mumbled.

His eyes widened in shock.

"Really? You never want to go Anywhere!" He said hugging me off the ground and swung me around.

I was finally put down with widened eyes.

"What the hell Daniel!" I shouted at him.

"Hehe sorry. I got a little too excited." He said smiling.

I gave a small smile back.

"Did you just smile?" He said putting his fist in his mouth. "Thats the first time I've ever seen you smile and I've known you for 2 years."

I shrugged.

Then I bumped into a guy.

"Watch where you're Going" he said then look down at me.

"You walk like a blind old man, put on your glasses, tough guy." I said with an emotionless face.

"Listen Daisy. The only one who needs glasses, is you." He said rolling his eyes walking away.

Weak ass comeback.

"My name is Rose, dipshit." I shouted from his behind.

"Bye Daisy!" He shouted back not turning around.

"Who the hell was that?" I asked Danny.

"He's the captain if the football team, Liam." He said shrugging

*
I only had two friends in this fucked up world.

Ashley and Danny.

"Hey Beautiful" Ashley said sitting next to me during lunch.

"Hey Ash." I said picking up my pizza.

"I heard you smiled today, I'm so proud of you." she said hugging me. "Are you ready to speak yet?" She said as I ignored her.

"Rose, just remember. I'm just trying to help you." She said with glossy eyes.

"I dont want to talk about it and I'm fine." I said.