Loving Daisy

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The day is going by slow.

I put my hand on my necklace, It was my mothers death anniversary.

We were going to visit her grave after I finish my work.

"Daisy." Someone said breaking me out of my trance.

I'm only with him because of the project which by the way is tomorrow.
We're in my living room, on the floor.

"What's wrong?" He asked gently making me turn my head towards him.

"I love how your acting like everything is okay." I said harshly.

"Rose! Ros- oh hey Liam." Patricia said rushing from the front door.

"I brought the flowers." She said putting them on the counter.

"Flowers for what?" Liam asked dumb folded.

"Patricia. Did I ever tell you the story on why I'm not talking to Liam?" I asked before she said something else.

"No." She asked crossing her arms and glaring at Liam as he looked at the ground.

"Well. I'm not talking to him, so you're not either. I just want to get this stupid project over with and kick him out our house." I said as she put her hands up in defeat and walked away.

"I love how you're talking about me right in front of me." Liam spoke up.

"Turn to your back and then it'll be considered talking behind your back." I said typing away.

"Daisy. I said I was sorry." He said.

"Sometimes sorry isn't enough." I said typing faster.

"I brought you 3 of your favorite pizzas." He said.

"Thanks for that." I said not looking at him.

"So does that means you forgive me?"

"You know." I said ignoring his last comment. "I'm an idiot for trusting you."

"You both are fucked in the head."

"Dais-"

"Save it." I said saving the file of the project.

"I'll email it to you. Can you print it out at home?" I said closing my computer and looking at his face.

Hurt. He looked hurt.

"Yeah. Sure." He said sighing.

*
After getting back from my mother grave.

Me and my sister stayed silent the whole time,

Driving from and to the grave.

We cried together, hugging each other as the rain drenched us.

Knock knock knock

I heard from my window.

Hesitant to open it, I took my baseball bat and opened it quickly.

"Forgive me." Was written on a note with a basket full of candy.

I should forgive him...

I flipped the card to the back to see it had his name written on the back.

But it hurts me that the only reason that he was here was because of a bet to steal my virginity.

My virginity is already taken. Forcefully, I can't take it back.

I didn't want to be raped. Who does?

I was a kid, i barely even knew what sex was and for my virginity  to be taken by my own father?

This world is a cruel world. why wont they let me die?

Patricia is the only reason why i'm still alive, she always stopped me from killing myself and attempted to get me help.

Little did they know i still want to die.