Mirage II K. th.

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I walked in to the building, made my way to the lift and as i got inside I pressed 40. A grin had formed in my lips. The journey to my room felt so fast, happiness truly filling my heart. 

As I stepped inside my penthouse, it turned 180°. I felt empty, again. Minutes ago I felt like the happiest person in this world, but minutes later I felt the opposite. I stepped closer to the glass wall, admiring the dark yet clear sky in front of me. 

'What happened to me?' 

That was a question that everyone even myself couldn't answer it. I had so much questions, but I couldn't blurt it out though I damnly want to. These questions trapped on my mind. Tears falling down without my permission, no use to held it, they were to eager to fall. I plugged my earphone on, pressing play button and the songs started to play. I shut my eyes and felt the calmness embrace me. And again, tears streaming down my face and fell into my feet. I cried over nothing, how funny.

It supposed to be beautiful autumn night, but it turned into gloomy autumn night. The colorful leaves just falling quietly, so did my soul. But except for the 'colorful' word. I was grey. I tried as best as I could to coloring my soul, but it was useless. My life seemed like falling leaves. They were already dead, yet their color and their dance were so alive. I hid my sadness under my mask whenever I near everyone. I laughed when jokes are funny and smile over pretty things. But it was an act. I was lunatic. 

I changed into my sleeping attire and plopped my body to my cozy bed. Tucked my body into warm blanked. I was looking at the ceiling, a memory about him flashed into my mind. Everything about him still fresh and well captured on my mind. Kept replying over and over again, it was infinity. Please fade, fade to black. 

Please, save me. Save me from this nightmare.