Back In Time

Chapter 18

Ezra's POV:

I was rolling through the hallways.

Again... I can't do anything! My wheelchair is always blocking me from being myself... I have been in it for almost 5 months. 5 months since the accident... since I found Zuko... Since I found Dawn...

I sighed...

I can't take jokes on someone, I can't go on missions, I can't go wherever I want to! It's horrible!

I stopped and took the elevator, who was working now, and went down so I could go out of the Ghost. Everyone was busy with a lot of stuff. So I went to Sato and Ahsoka.

"Hey Ezra. How are you?" Ahsoka asked me.

"Hey, I'm fine." I smiled...

it wasn't a real smile, but it was one... She smiled back and showed me what happened on the missions were the crew went on... without me. I acted like I cared, but if I have to be honest... I didn't.

"When can I go with them?" I had to ask...

"You can't Bridger. The crew is as strong as their weakest person. Do you understand that sentence?"

"Yes. I do." I tried to look angry at him, but the sadness took over...

I rolled away into the Ghost towards my room. I crawled into my bed and tried to meditate... but my thoughts took over like the sadness did with my anger.

"Will I be like this for the rest if my life?"

Of course I will... the med droid told me...

"Will They take me on a mission someday?"

You know the answer is no.

"Will you ever realize you're useless now?"

I will...

"Do you remember that you said you were strong without fear and those things? That you would overcome all of this?"

Yes.

"What do you think now?"

I said those things... BUT! I never believed them... I still remember what I said to myself that day...

flashback

"Will the crew change around me?"

I hope not... I'm still the same Ezra!

"What about missions?"

I can still protect myself!

"What about just walk- ... riding in and out the Ghost and around the base?"

I am strong enough... they don't have to worry about me. But deep inside... I know that I'm still broken. The things I call myself aren't true... maybe I'm not strong enough... I will need help... it isn't that I don't trust everyone around me! I trust them with my life!!! I think I just...

don't trust myself...

end of flashback

And I think... that I still don't trust myself...