Suicidal [Completed]

Chapter 12: The First Fight

When we got home, Seokmin went straight to his room, and I went to mines. I locked the door, not wanting Seokmin to come in. He was and getting on my nerves. He was too clingy. I get that he was very protective and all, but he doesn't even hear the whole story to understand things. Urgh Seokmin has been so irritating the last few days.

But he made me feel more than ever... More than hate.. 

I walked over to my white desk and looked for my journal. I moved the small bin that had color pencils tied together by a rubber band. I took out my small cardboard box I had many memorizes in and some notebooks. Then I grabbed my journal. 

Yes it was well hidden from many people. The only people that knows I have it Mark, Mom and Dad. Mom wanted me to write when I was feeling sad or anything. I think that is when I started writing. I put everything away and put the book on my desk. I then started to write in the journal.

Dear Journal,

To day didn't turn out to be the best. I honest feel like something is biting him inside. Earlier, Minghao was talking to me about how we looked like a couple. I don't even know what to say about that. And he kept talking to me about how Meanie, Verkwan, JeongCheol and the others got him and Jun together.

I heard a knock at my door. I got up and walked over to the door. 

"Yes?" I asked quietly

"Can I come in?" He asked.

"Uh," I looked over to the desk, "no."

"Jisoo, come on," He whined.

"Seokmin, don't," I said to him.

"Fine," I  heard his footsteps leaving. Then I heard the front door slam shut. I slightly opened the door, and saw no one there. That was the first time I saw Seokmin mad.

I waited for almost two hours. He wasn't even back, which seemed weird. I got up from where I was sitting on the couch, and I went to my phone.

"Hey, Jeonghan?"

"Yeah?"

"Uh... Seokmin has been gone for a while, uh, is he there with you?"

"Yes, he is," I heard some shushing, "Do you need him?"

"No! I was just wondering," I signed, "I'll be leaving now."

"Wait! Seokmin wants to talk to you-" 

"NO I DON'T!" I heard through the phone.

"I'll be leaving now," I bid goodbye and hung up the phone.

I set the phone down and left to my room. I locked myself in and got ready to sleep. By the time I was ready to sleep, Seokmin hadn't even got back. I went to sleep without him.