Suicidal [Completed]

Chapter 13: I am Sorry

'Seokmin's POV

After I left, I walked straight to Seungcheol's house. I told him everything, and he was no help. He and Jeonghan has never gotten into a fight, maybe small ones, but it always ended up to one of them apologizing.

"If you apologize first, you are being the man," Jeonghan smiled.

"Or if you guys at least talk it out, then maybe you can solve it," Seungcheol glared at Jeonghan.

"I don't know what to do! He probably won't even talk to me~" I whined and flopped to the ground.

"Don't say that. It is Jisoo's first," Jeonghan laughed.

"URGH!" I grabbed my hair and started rolling around.

"Seokmin-" 

"Jeonghan, just leave be," Seungcheol took Jeonghan out of the room.

I laid down on the ground for the rest of the night. I must of have been in deep thought that I closed my eyes without thinking.

--Next Day--

I woke up cuddling next to the couch. I got up and walked over to the door, remembering that I wasn't in the apartment I shared with Jisoo. 

I walked out and found Jeonghan and Seungcheol cuddling together on the couch in the living room.

"My gawd," I mumbled and left their apartment, but leaving a note to tell them I was going back.

Once I was in the apartment, I walked quietly to Jisoo's door.

 "Jisoo?" I knocked lightly. There was no respond, so I then left him. I walked to my room and changed into fresh clothes.

I heard Jisoo's door open. He walked away from my room, which was really funny. He probably didn't I came home.

"Oh, hello?"

"I don't know. I thought he was with Jeonghan and Seungcheol."

"Oh yes, I will check."

I heard him come towards my room. He opened the door slightly and he saw me. 

"Yeah he is here," He closed the door, "Yeah, don't worry about it."

"Oh okay yeah, no problem. I probably can't. Mark and Jackson wants me to go and do things with them today."

I tried to ignore him, but he seemed to be on the top of my mind. I needed someone to rant to. I picked up my phone and dialed Hoshi's number. On the second ring he picked up.

"Yes?"

"Are you open today?" I asked.

"Totally free, until three," He mumbled.

"Great! I'm coming over!"

"Yay!" He had the least enthusiasm in his voice.

I hung him up and left the room. I saw Mark and Jackson in the front room.

"Where you going?" Jackson asked me.

"Hoshi wanted to hang out," I smiled at them.

"Hm, kay whatever," Jackson glared at me. 

I left the apartment and went to Hoshi's house. It was the longest ride to his house. He lived an hour away. So I was alone for a whole hour. Once I got to his house, I saw his younger siblings already tackling each other.

"Aha, sorry for them!" Mrs. Kwon smiled.

"No problem, is Soonyoung home?" I asked.

"Yes, in the back," She smiled.

I walked to the back, where I found Soonyoung, Jun and Minghao.

"Oh, hello," I glared at Minghao.

"Sorry, I forgot that we were practicing for something," Soonyoung smiled.

"No problem, I'll just leave," I walked back to the front. I saw Dino running to the back. He waved at me and left me walking.

Urgh, well, at least I had to time to think to myself. Maybe I should apologize. I did get mad over something very small. Right?  Urgh... Maybe I am sorry for what I did. I did promise Jisoo to keep him happy, right?

When I got home, I saw Jisoo on the ground. He seemed to be crying.

"Soo? What's wrong?" I walked up to him. I saw red liquid coming from his arm.

"JISOO! Omg, What did you do to yourself?! Omg, stay here, Ima call for help-"

"D-Don't." He choked and burst into a lot of tears.

"Hey, it's okay, okay?" I lift him up and brought him to the couch, "Let me see."

He shook his head and held his arm closer to him.

"Come on," I grabbed his arm and looked at it. It was very deep, "Jisoo, you need someone to look at it, please?"

"N-no," He held in tears.

"Jisoo, please," I pleaded.

He sat there. Doing nothing. 

I waited for him to do something.

"Jisoo, please. I am so sorry, just let me take you to someone that can help you,"

"No, you won't! YOU WON'T HELP!" He screamed and got up. 

"Jisoo-" He fell to the ground. I had to help him. He wasn't moving.

I grabbed my phone and dialed the ambulance, "Hello? Pleas help me! My friend, he just collapse. "

I felt tears come down my face. "Jisoo, please stay with me. Jisoo, please!" I begged him. He wouldn't even open his eyes.