Nightmares (Newtmas AU)

Chapter 6

Everything felt different after the conversation with my mum. I didn't know how to continue to function as a normal human being. I've ruined the lives of the people who are most important to me.

I was given books to learn more about what happened however many years ago. I learned that the war my mom talked about was bigger than she said and not only started for the reason she stated. People were killing each other, it was violent and brutal.

Something still seemed off. The way mum told me about it and the way I read about it was completely different. Her and dad seemed distant like they didn't want confrontation.

I ignored it, I ignored everyone. I got ready and drove myself to school with a constant stoic expression. I didn't bother to read or answer the text messages I've received, and I didn't bother to do any of my homework. I continued to drive down the road not caring about how the cops are still looking for what killed those hikers, and not caring that it was my fault. I stepped on the brakes of my car when visions of bodies flashed before my eyes. I couldn't begin to explain how mutilated they were.

I ignored them. I shook it off and continued to drive. I finally arrived at the school 20 minutes later than I was supposed to, and walked into the classroom and took my seat.

I ignored him, the teacher who was asking why I was late, and the "are you okay's" that were directed at me.

Throughout the day I experienced more visions. They came to me like a slap in the face. I couldn't tell if they were real or not. A motif in the visions was blood, a lot of it. Sometimes it was severed limbs, sometimes it was a bullet wound, sometimes it was loved ones. They became so rapid, one after another, and they'd just keep coming. They all made me feel dizzy. I was drowning in these visions, my strokes to surface were useless against the strong current, and felt myself getting farther away from the surface that was reality. A shake of my shoulders was what pulled me back. I looked over to see who did it, but the classroom was empty.

It was no longer day, outside of the window was pure black, no visible stars. The lights in the classroom were on, but not in the hallway.
"Hello!" I called out, hoping for a response, but with no luck. I pushed myself out of the chair and looked around at all of the desks that contained old notebooks and gum on the bottom sides. The room smelled weirdly clean, like bleach. The smell seemed to be stronger in the back of the room and I followed the smell. The classroom seemed to grow 4x in length, the more I walked the less progress I made to the back of the room. 
After what seemed like forever I started to reach the back. It was so quiet except for the fish tank that made a constant hum.

First I saw the blood. A huge pool that I could swim in, then I saw the body, or what was left of it.
"This is your fault," was whispered into my ear, but there was no being that it belonged to. The fragment, your fault, repeated as if it was coming from every crevice in the room.
"No!" I screamed, shutting my eyes. Then it stopped, and it was silent again. I opened one eye, and then the other. It was day again, and the students were all back. They were looking at me like I had seven heads. I realized that I had still been standing in the back of the classroom and I had just screamed the word no in front of everyone.
"Newt, could you please explain to the class why you've killed us all... why do you want us to die, Newt?" Mr. Carpenter called out.
"What?" I sounded defeated and my question was barely audible to anyone but myself. I looked around and everyone stared at me with furious expressions. The front wall of the classroom was replaced with faces as tall as the ceiling. Their mouths were open wide, and they were yelling. I covered my ears as tight as I could, but it was useless and the faces were so loud. The whole world began to shake rapidly for me, and once again it became calm.

I looked up and I was no longer in the classroom, but on a highway near my house. There were no cars passing by, but if there was it was too foggy to tell. The rain splattered onto the pavement, one droplet after the other. It was calming; I hoped that I had finally woken up from whatever just happened, but I knew it was the equivalent for wishing to win the lottery without buying a lottery ticket.

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Hi, so I'm back! Idk how often I'll post, but I definitely want to work on this story more and finish it. What are your current thoughts on the story? Also I apologize for any errors, I haven't read through this yet I just wanted to post. The song is just a really pretty song it doesn't have to do with the story of anything. 😊
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