Cold Hearted August

Chapter 20. Doubt Catalina

White knuckles from clenching my fist too hard, and gritted teeth from effort to remain silent, every thought stung and only fueling the fire that burned inside of me. Every violated phrase was like gasoline to it, my fists began to clench again by my sides and my jaw rooted as I exploded with anger. Who the hell did that...that hussy think she was!

Was she insane, arrogant or just plain stupid? Ugh!

Pacing along my confines of the living room still steamed about yesterday I still hadn't cooled off because of what happened ate away at me like an annoying flee.

But was it just the girls attempt of flirting with Lara that angered me or was it the moments of hesitation it took Lara to reject the girl and not show affection until after she left?

Should I be scared? My palms were starting to sweat and adrenaline coursed through my system, shutting down my ability to think logically. Why should I be scared? What should I be scared of? I mean true Lara has a reputation of being nothing but a one night stand,relationships never being her thing for a while. Should I be scared that she's just trying to get into my pants?

I know so much already yet I blindly followed my heart and accepted becoming Lara's girlfriend quickly but like I had told her, I've never wanted something or someone so passionately and part of me craved for Lara. I just hope my heart doesn't get broken in the process. I mean why would Lara do that?

She wouldn't. Would she? I know herto well enough to know she wouldn't. Do I?

The musical dinging of the doorbell dragged me from my depressing thoughts hoping that a distraction would be awaiting behind the door. Thankfully it was as I took in the faces of my friends; well Elizabeth. Victoria and Shannon were in the back seat of her silver 2000 jeep liberty.

"Mall?" I asked not even needing to have my friend speak.

"Bingo. Come on." Elizabeth spoke.

The drive to me was quick and easy as I had zoned out the entire time gazing out the window looking at passing cars and trees but my silence wouldn't be long as the girls made me spill every detail about the past two days; spending the rainy day cuddled up with Lara watching movies and baking cookies,the sexual tension rolling off our bodies like steam when we were fooling around in the kitchen and our kiss. That caused their mouths to drop to the floor faster then a dime.

"Oh my god how was  it?"Shannon asked

"Was it like the last one?"Victoria added bluntly forgetting that Elizabeth and Shannon didn't know about Lara and mines first kiss.

"Last one?" They both objected.

"When was the first?"Elizabeth asked seeming disappointed that I had with held information from her.

"Ray's party. Remember?" I spoke

"Right, but remind me."Shannon spoke clearly forgetting.

I explained how the entire evening from arriving til Lara had disappeared on me. I told them how Lara and I had fought when I accused her of being jealous and the next thing I knew, she had slammed her lips to mine; nearly knocking all wind from my lungs.

I expressed how I hardly had a moment to react before she pressed her tongue to the seam of my lip and I granted it access to delved inside my mouth, the taste of liquor on her breath as we exchanged in the intermingling of our billowing breathing before my arms reached up and tangled around Lara's strong neck.

"Damn." Was the only reaction.

"So fast forward to the other day. You kissed again then what?" Shannon asked taking out her wallet before stepping up to the pretzel stand.