Reunited

Chapter 14

He walked towards me, sat beside me and said "Are you sure you're going to be okay?" he asked.

"Yea I'll be more than fine I can guaranty you that" I said and gave him one of the most fake smiles I could have ever given a person. I don't mean to be so fake but I just didn't know what I could have done.

"My flight leaves at eight, I have to go" he said resting his arms on his knees.

"I guess this is goodbye" I said standing up and facing him.

"I guess it is" he said standing in front of me. He looked down at me and smiled "Jass, I'm so glad I got to see you again, these past days have been unbelievably fascinating and...I'm going to miss you"

"My dearest friend John, this isn't goodbye we shall meet once more one day and we shall hang out and have some more unbelievable days" I said smiling up at him.

"Why do you always make sad moments into a comedy?" he asked.

"Well maybe it's my way of masking the way I really feel" I said looking down at the floor.

"Well you don't have to mask your feelings with me Jasmine. You can be honest with me, please tell me that this is killing you as much as it's killing me"

I looked up at him looking down at me and I felt a tear going down my face and said "Jonathan I would rather mask my feelings than to lose you as a friend".

"What do you mean? There's nothing you could do or say that would tare our friendship Jasmine" he said.

He grabs me by the elbows and pulls me closer to him. I pull him away and say "You should go, you'll miss the plane, go find Christine. Goodbye Jonathan. I'm going to be in New York soon and we probably won't see each other for some time."

"I guess so" he said "I'm going to miss you".

"I'm going to miss you too" I said holding back my tears.

We hugged for what seemed forever and then he let go. As he walk towards the door I could feel my heart begin to shatter into a million pieces. For a moment I felt like time stopped waiting for me to tell him not to leave and to tell him that he is all I ever wanted, that I don't want to live without him, that I want him to stay, tell him that I love him. I let him walk away and the door closed behind him and as I heard the car leave I fell on my knees and started crying, all the tears I have been holding back running down my face like a river.

After a while I decided to start cleaning and get my mind off Jonathan. The place was starting to look like it used to. It's time to make things the way they used to be, before Jonathan and before Matt. Now it's just me, me and my career.

When I finished cleaning the house I sat down and finished the sketches which would be sent tomorrow. I had nothing else to do and I didn't want to watch T.V. so I grabbed a note pad and a guitar that was buried in my closet and started writing:


I look back and think
Such beautiful memories
Some of which I pick
To keep with me safely

All I want is you
All I ever wanted is you
And all I'll ever want is you

I wish you loved me
The way I love you
But the love that has come to be
Means not as much to you

Oh how I wish we went back
To that day at the table
To the days we walked in the park

I hope this is not goodbye
This is my attempt to make you fall for us
I hope nothing was a lie
Because without you I am lost

Remember that day you sat at my house
Talked to me and told me how much I meant
And said you'll stick by me until the end

I gave it my best attempt
To get back to the same
And To tell you how much you meant.