Para Sa Akin (Dedicated To You Trilogy)

Ika-apat

Storms come in our lives.
But we have to learn how to jive.
Maybe we won't feel we're alive,
But remember, struggles are things we don't need to hide.
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To my very gorgeous wife,

It's me again.

Isang linggo na mula ng huli akong mag-e-mail sa iyo. It was still marked as unread. Hindi ko alam kung nabasa mo na ito at in-unseen mo lang o sadyang hindi mo pa nababasa. Ganunpaman ay gusto ko pa din na sumulat sa iyo in anyway I know.

Kamusta na kayo ni baby? Is the champ doing well? Pinapahirapan niya ba masyado si mommy sa cravings? I can't really wait to be with you again. Heto na naman ako. Kukulitin ka upang malaman ang lokasyon mo. Why did you have to leave me?

Please, let me be a dad to our child. Please, let me be a husband to you. I may not be the best not even close to good, but I want to at least try to be a "husband" to you. I know it is too much to ask and a shame. I know I have given you too much pain, too much stress, too much headache, but please, let me at least try to conceal. Nakikiusap ako sa iyo. Sabihin mo na sa akin kung nasaan ka.