In My Arms ~Jyler~

just breathe

tyler:

you were still asleep

as josh and i talked.

yet, we worried.

***

i was finally falling asleep on the couch until josh came running towards me,

shaking me.

"tyler?! wake up!!"

"wha--what? what's wrong?"

"not me, jenna!!"

"what?!"

"just come!!"

he dragged me off the couch.

running towards your room.

"look."

we were outside the room,

not able to get in because of the doctors.

 i saw dr. Huges performing CPR on you.

"OPEN UP!!" i yelled.

trying not to break the glass as i slammed my fist against them.

they ignored me.

"HEY!! OPEN UP!! THAT'S MY GIRLFRIEND IN THERE!! OPEN UP!!"

"Tyler, calm down!!"

josh tried to wrap his arms around me,

trying to stop me from banging the glass doors.

"NO JOSH!!"

"TYLER!!"

"LEAVE ME ALONE!! SHE'S MY GIRLFRIEND!! I NEED TO BE IN THERE WITH HER!!"

"TYLER!! LISTEN TO ME!!"

"LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE JOSH!!"

i tried to get out of his grip.

moving and pulling away.

he let go of me,

making me face him.

"TYLER!! LISTEN TO ME!!"

he laid his hands on his shoulders,

trying to make me look into his eyes.

"JOSH, NO!! JENNA IS IN THERE DYING AND YOU WANT ME TO CALM DOWN?!"

"CALM DOWN ALREADY!!"

i wouldn't listen.

so he slapped me.

hard.

"woah."

"i know, im sorry but you have to calm down. they're doing their best. they're the doctors, not you."

"im sorry."

"no, im sorry for slapping you."

"don't be, i deserved it."

"don't say that."

"whatever."

***

they still didn't let me in.

they had you hooked up to wires and medicine.

there was also a table full of needles and shots. 

just like chemotherapy.

just breathe jenna, just breathe.

i couldn't do anything besides watch. 

the doctors and nurses looked up at each other, 

then at me.

they took off their masks in surrender.

they were finally able to open the door.

"we tried our best." said dr. Huges.

i past all of them as they walked out of the room.

"jenna? can you hear me?"

josh walked in as well,

following me.

you barely made any movements. 

"hi."

"OH MY GOD! WE THOUGHT YOU WERE DEAD! THANK GOD YOU'RE NOT."

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so here's a song to get you in the mood...get ready to cry i guess?

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"tyler?"

"yes?"

i got closer to you.

"can you lay down with me?"

"sure."

i sat on the hospital bed with you,

holding you in my arms.

josh stood in front of the bed stand.

"i love you tyler."

"i love you too jenna."

you planted a smile before the monitor started beating fast.

within in seconds, the line went flat.

"jenna?"

i looked down at you.

nothing.

"jenna?!"

sobs broke the silence.

josh walked out of the room

so i wouldn't see him cry.

and so he wouldn't see his lifeless friend in my arms.

"jenna?"

i said one last time.

"can you hear me?"

"tyler?"

i looked up to find josh crying.

"tyler, she's...she's gone."

"no she's not. she's not dead. she's just asleep, right jenna? right, that you're just asleep?"

nothing.

he's right.

she's dead.

"jenna, you promised me you wouldn't leave me alone..."

i started to cry...