Another Love | Clexa (Completed)

Chapter 16: Losing Your Memory

(Song: Losing Your Memory by Ryan Star)

Call all your friends
And tell them you're never coming back
Cause this is the end
Pretend that you want it
Don't react
The damage is done
The police are coming too slow now
I would have died
I would have loved you all my life

Clarke, Raven, an Octavia sat by the lily beds of the Polis gardens, watching the sun set over the gleaming red Polis lake. The Polis tower cast a long dark show on the water, undisturbed by the ripples. The three girls sat in silence, having used up everything they had had to say, already, until Raven spoke up again.

“Clarke, we do not blame you for anything, you know. That was just anger talking. None of this is on you.”

Clarke turned to her and gave the other girl a small smile, “I know, Ray. I did’t take it to heart, nbelieve me. This is something I just have to do.”

“You don’t have to do anything! Lexa’s got tons of people who could carry this out. Why are you doing this? Is this you blaming yourself for everything Pike did?” Octavia said, agitated.

“No, O. I am not blaming myself. I am just trying to make things right. For our people.”

“ Why you?”

“Cause no one is better privileged for this, than me. You know Queen Nia of Azgeda has been after my title for ages? The Commander of Death title? I am the only one who can even reach close to her.”

“You’ll get killed, for heaven’s sake, Clarke!” Raven exclaimed. “ This is not making things right. This is suicide!”

“No it’s not, I’ll be back, I promise,” Clarke turned to look at each of them reassuringly.

“Well, for that you have to let Lexa send you there, in the first place,” Octavia said, and stood up as the evening bells rang. “Duty beckons!” she sighed. “Sleep over this, Clarke. We can all sit and take an informed decision tomorrow.”

Clarke nodded, stood up and gave Octavia a sudden hug, “Thank you for everything, Octavia.”

“Whoa! What’s with the hugging? I’ll see you soon, you daft idiot,” she laughed and left for the evening guard.

Clarke sat down beside Raven, who turned to look at her, “I am not going to lose you too, princess.”

Clarke was struck by the sheer heartfeltness of the words.

“You’re not, Raven. We all do what we have to do.”

“That doesn’t mean you go out there and get yourself killed. You are far too important than that. You can’t play God with your own life!”

“I have played God with four hundred lives, before,” Clarke sighed. “I will take care of myself.”

Raven placed a comforting hand on Clarke’s hands, and held them. “Clarke I lost Finn because of his own stupidity ok? His emotions got the better of him and pushed him over the edge. I am not going to lose you the same way. Like Octavia said, you are far too important, Clarke. We need you,” she gave a small pause, and then added, “I need you.”