♥ *MCR- frerard & rikey!* ♥

ray's house: jealously..?

Ray's POV.-

it was already getting dark outside, and mikey was in the kitchen geting us something to drink. the smell of him was all over my clothes. we could never keep our distance honestly. I dont know what I would do without him, he was always there for me and I was always there for him.  we've always had such a special bond together.  he walked back into the room, and sat on the bed with me. nobody said anything for awhile. finally mikey's soft voice asked, "what do you think they're doing?" I paused for a second, thinking to myself. "maybe passed out drunk together?" I replied without looking at him and chuckled. I waited then I looked over to him to see him smiling lightly. he laughed too. "haha true." he agreed. he put the iced drinks down then sat closer. "ray.." mikey whispered. slowly and gently I felt his warm fingers connect with mine as we sat there listening to niarvia. the soft music kinda made it romantic witch made me want to lean over and kiss him until we were out of breath. "yeah?" I looked at him again. "what is it about me do you like exactly?" he suddenly asked. my heart ached and my stomach turned. ' how am I supposed to explain that?'  I chewed my lips thinking. "well.." I started. my eyes couldn't focus on him, I am always horrible at explaining things, and trying to explain why or what I love is way much harder..  "i love everything about you." I managed to say, but the answer wasn't good enough for him. I realized the answer. "mikey, you are unquie and i couldn't just chose a certain thing about you. you are amazing and I mean it. everything about you is perfect and I love your personality a lot." I explained, trying to express my feelings. his eyes turned to the floor, and a frown formed across his face. "mikey?" I asked. 'shit. did I say something wrong?' I hesitated to get closer, but I eventually pulled him onto my lap and held him close. "what's wrong? tell me.." I mumbled. I was trying my best to comfort him but it seemed like I was doing the opposite. "nothing. I'm fine." he faked a smile. he pulled away from me and sat back onto the bed. a few minutes passed but it felt like forever. my heart began to ache again and I didn't know what to do.. "how do you feel about gerard?" he asked randomly. 'what does gerard have anything to do with this? I said nothing about gerard'  I thought frantically. "um? he's nice? he's like a brother to me?" I said feeling so lost and confused. he turned and gave me the coldest stare that gave me the chills. he actually looked like he wanted to slap me. then finally the thought hit me.  'is he jealous?!'  he turned away again. "mikey, y-you aren't jealous of gerard are you?" I had to ask but there was silence. I saw tears rolling down is pale cheeks. "mikey, I don't like him like that. my heart is yours and I only want to be with you and you know that." I said, cupping his cheeks to make him look at me again. his eyes starring back into my made me smile. he always had beautiful eyes. I wiped his tears away with my thumb and leaned in closer. "but now we know he's gay! he is better than me. he is perfection. I mean, he could have any girl or guy in the world... but he chose frank. what if one day he wants you instead! I cant even compare to him. he would obviously steal you away from me easily..." mikey said. he just poured his heart out to me and I was speechless.. i didn't even know what to say. but i realized he truly loved me. i sat on the bed with him and hugged him close. "mikey. i love you. i don't want you to forget that, and i won't let anyone come between us alright." i said before i started kissing his neck...

/// i'm debating if i should even continue...?