Struggle (boyxboy)

Chapter 3 (part 1)

*short part*

Ryan's POV

So I decided to man up and come back to school the next day, chin up, chest out, and proudly strut back to class like the gay boy that I am. Kids like me have to just learn to get over things quick so they don't pull you down anymore. And in plus, the thought of school isn't all bad now, since now I know that Jay is looking out for me. Well, at least that's the impression I got from out little convo yesterday. Just thinking about it has my spirits higher than they've been in a while. 

I got to first period with a smile on my face. The teacher smirked at my expression, and I just playfully rolled my eyes and looked elsewhere. Mr. Hugley is a nice guy, he actually tries with me. He's even given me a few pep talks before after noticing my depressed attitude, but he didn't get very far with me because I tend to just close people out too much, and he eventually gave up. He's still nice to me though.

I looked around the room, searching for Jay's pretty face with no such luck. It is a little earlier than class is supposed to start, so I decided to give him some time a lay my head down on my desk. Some time passed and soon enough I heard his beautiful voice laughing and joking around with his friends as they walked into class. My head shot up and I shamelessly watched Jay's every move until class started. 

Mr. Hugley was talking about some Physics project and about how we needed to partner up with people. I always hate these kinds of activities becuase I don't talk to anybody so either someone always ends up being stuck with me or they partner up with me because they felt like doing some self-pronounced charity that day. It's torture!

So people started searching for partners and I just looked down and started doodling in my notepad with nothing better to do. My hopes and dreams of partnering up with Jay were gone once I saw him and some green-eyed jock-person give each other dap and sit together. I eternally groaned and looked back down at my notepad. 

After a minute or two passed from my heartbreak, I thought I heard my name somewhere. When I looked up, I saw Jay and that one guy looking at me and talking. Then, all of a sudden, Jay got up and proudly walked over to me, with a grin on his face. He ruffled my hair and said, "What's up Ryan, how ya been?"

Woah, didn't see that coming. Why did he come over here? 

I'm sure I was blushing, AGAIN at his presense. "Hi Jay, I'm, uh... good I guess. You?" I seriously need to work on my awkwardnesss.

He shrugged. "Same. So, uh... you need a partner?"

My eyes shot wide open fom the shock. "Yeah, I do, but I thought you were partnering up with that guy over there." I guestured toward his friend.

"Who, Gabe? No--well I was-- but, he gave me away for Justine over there." 

Who the hell would give Jay up? What is wrong with him? "Who the hell in their right mind would give you up?" I blurted without thinking. My face grew redder, and I attempted to save myself. "What I mean is--"

He cut me off with his laughter. He has the cutest laugh. "Damn bro, I'm not all that. Believe it or not, Jay Landon can be replaced. He's a human too." he informed me, playfully.

"I didn't mean it like that, I just meant.. you, um..."

"It's okay, I get it. I was just kidding around." He said, still smiling, showing off his perfect row of straight, white teeth. "Did you get the intruction sheet for this project?"

I nodded and handed him the paper. 

He looked over it, with this focused look on his face. It was so cute to stare at. "Okay, so what we're gonna have to do is pick which project we wanna do. I kinda like this soda one. It looks pretty easy and... I like soda."

I giggled at him and nodded. "Yeah, I like this one too. Um.. when do you wanna work on this?"

"Tonight, if that's cool with you.."

I smiled and nodded my head. "Yeah, sounds good. Can we... work on it at your place because I don't think you wanna meet my parents.."

He raised his eyebrows a little and nodded. "Uh.. yeah sure, we can do that. Come over at 6, alright?" he said, getting up.

"Ok."

I cannot believe this is happening. I'm gonna actually be at Jay Landon's house tonight!!