Story Of My Insignificant Life: Part Two

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I don't even know what to call this chapter, I suppose I just need a place to rant or whatever. I honestly don't care at the moment.

Idk wtf is even going on with me anymore. I was actually starting to feel kind of better and I actually kind of liked myself but lol no I'm just goin downhill again. Right now, I hate myself SO MUCH. I can't even express that enough. I try to help someone and I just make matters worse. I let myself care too much, I let myself get my hopes up, when I KNOW  I'm just going to be disappointed. I've been so tired and so moody that I can't even keep track. And yet I have the audacity to tell others not to complain. I'm such a hypocrite. I don't know why anyone still talks to me, you all can do so much better. Do you talk to me out of pity or something...? 

I've been trying to keep myself positive because I care about all of you so much and I don't want you to see me as an emotional wreck. But it's kind of hard to keep that up when the important people in your life begin to feel shitty too. 

I don't feel well. Lately I haven't been myself. I've been so much more emotional and irritable than usual, and my sleeping habits are all off, as well as my eating habits. I'm not gonna jump to conclusions and say it's depression, but I'm certain that I've been acting out of the ordinary(Aren't I always, though). 



I'm really sorry guys, i'm just going through a lot. please, don't worry about me, i'm sure i'll be fine. I'll try to get my mind off of this by doing some writing or something.