Terrified To Love You

Chapter Three

Eliza's pov
I am sitting in an empty on-call room waiting for Arizona to arrive. I got us a pizza from the cafeteria. I glance up as Arizona comes in and locks the door behind us. Her face is gloomy and I can see pain in her ocean blue eyes. "hey, you ok?" I ask. "Yeah." She lies. She has tears in her eyes. "No, you're not. I may not have known you for long, but I know when you're in pain. Sit." I order as I pick her up and place her on the bed. "Thanks," She murmurs, "It's my leg. It gets sore sometimes.  "Let me help you." I plead. I know Arizona is uncomfortable about her leg and I want to assure her she is beautiful in every single way. She nods shyly and I help her stand up. She takes off her pants and stumbles a little. I catch her and ease her back down onto the bed. "I got you, Arizona," I promise. "Eliza... the scar is really ugly. It was dark last night so you couldn't really see it." She says worriedly. "Arizona. I swear I will never run. You are so gorgeous. A little scar can't scare me away." I reassure her. She slowly removes her leg and places it on the bed. I kneel down and gaze into her stunning blue eyes. "I'm going to massage your leg now, ok?" I whisper. She nods and I start to massage her leg. "That feel ok, baby?" I ask. "Yeah. Thanks." She smiles at me. I massage her leg until she grabs my hands to stop me. "It feels much better. Thanks, Eliza. Let's eat. I'm hungry!" She laughs and pecks my lips.

Arizona's pov

We sit on the bed and eat the cheesy pizza she bought. It's delicious. "Thanks for the pizza. It's really good." I say. "Of course, love." She replies. Once we finish, we wipe our mouths and cuddle on the bed. I lay my head on her chest and listen to her heartbeat. It beats steadily and it makes me feel safe. She yawns, her nose crinkling adorably, and wraps me in her strong, warm arms. She is so warm and I love being held by her. I never thought I would ever feel this way about someone after Callie, but I know Eliza is the one who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know it's soon, but when you know something, you know. "Arizona?" She asks as she places a gentle kiss on my head. "Yeah?" I say as I intertwine our fingers. "You are so beautiful." She grins. I blush and kiss her lips. I groan as my pager goes off. "Do you have to go?" She asks. "Yeah. I'll see you later, ok?" I sigh as I get up and put my prosthesis and pants back on. I kiss her soft, pink lips once more and leave, closing the door behind me. I head off to the peds floor. I hear the monitor going crazy on one of my patients. Oh god. I run as fast as I can and arrive to see Alex calling time of death. "He didn't make it?!" I ask, stunned. The kid came in for a valve repair on his heart. He's only five. "No. I tried for twenty minutes. Even if I could have brought him back, he was deprived of oxygen for so long that..." Alex starts but I interrupt. "It wouldn't have mattered. He would be brain dead or at least have severe brain damage." I sigh. "Do you want to tell his parents or should I?" Alex asks sweetly. He's a good person. He is like my little brother, really. "I'll do it. You should go check on your liver transplant baby." I say. Alex nods and hands me the patient's chart. It's Gabriel. Oh god. I've been treating him since he was little. He has, well, had, heart problems. "His mothers should be back soon. They went to get some food." Alex says solemnly as he leaves. "Dr Robbins?" I hear a voice ask. I turn and see Gabriel's mothers. "Hi. Will you please come with me?" I ask. They nod worriedly and I lead them to a spare room. "I'm afraid Gabriel went into cardiac arrest. Dr. Karev tried for twenty minutes to restart his heart. Even if his heart restarted, the brain damage from lack of oxygen would have been very severe. There was nothing more anyone could do to bring your son back. Despite the best efforts by Dr.Karev and the nurses, Gabriel died at 12:32 am. I am sorry for your loss." I say kindly. The two woman burst into tears and lean against each other for support. "Let me know if you need anything. I'm so sorry." I say as I leave the room to give them some much needed privacy. I find myself blinking back tears of my own. I can't even imagine loosing Sofia. I find myself starting to cry harder and know I need to get out of there and fast. I rush to an on-call room and page Eliza. She comes almost immediately.

Eliza's pov
When Arizona pages me 911, I run. Legs pumping, praying nothing terrible has happened to her. I find her in an on-call room. Physically she looks fine, but her distraught face tells an entirely different story. I enter and close the door behind me. "Arizona? You ok?" I ask. She shakes her head no and starts to cry. I immediately scoop her up in my arms and sit on the bed with her in my lap. She sobs into my chest. "Arizona, what's wrong, baby?" I ask her gently. "My patient who've I've been treating since he was a baby died. It made me think that what if I lost Sofia?" She says quietly. "Oh, baby. It's ok. You aren't going to loose Sofia. She has two amazing surgeons for mothers. She's fine." I sooth. Arizona sighs and her sobs cease. "Eliza?" She asks softly. "Yeah?" I say. "Hold me?" Of course my love." I say as I plant a gentle kiss on her forehead. She lies down and motions for me to come closer. I lay down next to her and wrap her in my arms. She rests her head on my chest, listening to my heart beat. "Don't ever leave me." She whimpers. "I won't leave you," I promise. She sighs contentedly and falls asleep on my chest. I smile at my gorgeous girlfriend as she sleeps peacefully in my arms. I yawn and curl up on the bed, her still in my strong arms, and fall asleep as well.