Terrified To Love You

Chapter Ten

Eliza's pov
Arizona and I lay in silence, staring into each other's eyes. I hear the door open and I sit up. Andrew comes in. "Yo. I found the pizza man on the doorstep so I got the pizza." He says as he sets down the pizza. "Mama?" I hear Sofia ask. I turn and see her coming into the living room, wiping the sleep out of her brown eyes. "Hey, baby girl. You hungry?" I ask. She nods and comes over to me. I pick her up and set her next to me on the couch. "Hey there Sof," Andrew says. "Andrew! Hi!" She exclaims, reaching over to give him a quick hug. We dig into the pizza. It is so good. "How was work, Andrew?" I ask. "Quiet. Really quiet. Kind of relaxing though. It's usually busy. When are you guys coming back?" He shrugs. "We both are on leave until Sofia has to go back to NYC," Arizona says, reaching for a napkin and wiping the sauce of Sofia's face. "Mama!" She whines. Arizona laughs and kisses Sofia's head. After supper, Andrew excuses himself to go study for his intern exam. Arizona and I clean the kitchen whilst Sofia unpacks her stuff.
Arizona's pov
Eliza gasps as I wrap my arms around her waist and kiss her neck. I laugh and spin her around to face me. She cups my face gently and we kiss. Her lips are so soft. We break apart when we hear little footsteps. "Hey, Sof. Did you unpack everything?" I ask. "Yep! All unpacked!" She grins at me and I smile sadly back at her. She had Mark's grin. I miss him so much. "How about we play some candy land?" I suggest. She nods her head and scampers off to get the game from the closet. I take Eliza's hand and lead her to the living room. We sit on the couch and Sofia pulls up the beanbag chair.

Eliza's pov

After a few games, Arizona takes her to bed. Once Sofia is asleep, she curls up next to me on the couch. "Do you want to take a bath?" I ask as she yawns. She nods and we head upstairs. I run the bath and gasp as I feel her arms wrap around me. She kisses my neck and I laugh. "C'mon silly. Let's get into the bath before it gets cold." I say as I break free from Arizona's grip and undress. She undresses and we slip into the warm, clear water. She lies in my arms and I hold her close to me. "Sofia is just like you." I murmur. "Yeah, but she looks like Callie. She has Mark's smile." Arizona says. "Who's Mark?" I ask, confused. "He was Callie's best friend and Sofia's dad. He died in the plane crash." She says sadly. "I'm sorry." I murmur. "It's ok. I should have told you sooner. I just don't talk about the crash. I don't talk about how Meredith cried for Lexie, how Mark moaned in pain, how Dereck was out cold, how I would scream from pain in the dead of night." She says. I hold her close to me. "Oh, baby. It's ok. I've got you." I soothe. "Yeah. I know. So what is your past like?" She asks. I flinch.

Arizona's pov

"I came to Seattle to escape my ex. She was verbally and physically abusive. I ran after the trial. I left. She is in jail for two years. And now I'm here." She says. Oh god. I had no idea. "Oh god, Eliza. I'm so sorry." I say, my heart breaking knowing she has been hurt by this woman. "It's ok. Everyone has a past." She murmurs. "You tired?" I ask. She yawns. "I'll take that as a yes. Let's get you to bed." I say as I get out of the tub. We get dressed in PJs and she carries me to bed. We lie in each other's arms. Salty tears start to stream down my face. I brush them away quickly but it's too late. "Hey..shhh...why are you crying?" Eliza asks as she holds me close to her. "I can't believe your ex hurt you. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I didn't protect you." I sob. Eliza pulls me to her chest and strokes my blond hair soothingly as I cry.

Eliza's pov

"Baby, please don't cry. It's not your fault. You didn't even know me back then." I beg. Slowly, her sobs cease and I hold her closer to me. "There you go, baby. It's ok." I soothe. I cradle her in my arms and start to sing her to sleep. (song by He Is We)

Merrily we fall
Out of line, out of line
I'd fall anywhere with you
I'm by your side

Swinging in the rain
Humming melodies
We're not going anywhere until we freeze

I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid

Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side

Carefully we're placed for our destiny
You came and you took this heart and set it free
Every word you write or sing is so warm to me, so warm to me
I'm torn, I'm torn to be right where you are

I'm not afraid, anymore
I'm not afraid

Forever is a long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me everyday I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all

You so know me
Pinch me gently
I can hardly breathe

Forever is a long, long time
But I wouldn't mind spending it by your side
Tell me every day I get to wake up to that smile
I wouldn't mind it at all
I wouldn't mind it at all

Arizona closes her eyes and drifts off in my arms. She is so gorgeous. Her blond hair is strooned across the white pillow, her face peaceful. What did I do to deserve her? I love her so much and her kid is amazing. I could see myself spending the rest of my life with Arizona. This is what happiness feels like. I close my eyes and fall asleep, too.