Sob*sob*sob*
I can’t stop crying…
Bakit kailangan na maging ganito? Ito ba ang kapalit ng masaganang buhay na mayroon ako? If this is it… then I don’t want it! I don’t want any of it!
I just want to be happy… I want to be normal… I want my freedom. I want to be able to live my life the way I wanted to. Haven’t I always been a good daughter? A good girlfriend? I always do what I think was right, what I think would make them happy. I just failed once pero masyodong naging malaki yung kapalit, malaki yung naging consequence. It’s the same with Harold… I never failed to make him feel that I love him… Mahal na mahal ko siya… But, he left me ALONE…
Do you know how it feels to be ALONE?
How it feels to be left by someone you love dearly...
How it feels to be deprived of the happiness you deserve…
ME?
I’ve always been alone…
I have tried my best to be loved... But, I always end up ALONE..
ALL… BY MYSELF…
NO ONE BUT MYSEF...
What if I disappear? Would they look for me?
Maybe it would be best if I would just run away... Siguro, kapag nawala ako, matututo silang pahalagahan ako.. Maybe they’ll realize that I’m important too…
I SHOULD GO. I should run away…
NOW!.
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*knock*knock*knock*knock*
“Ma’am Amanda…?”
I slowly opened my eyes… Nakatulog pala ako kaiiyak kagabi… Buti nalang Saturday ngayon… I won’t have to go to school... Hindi ko din kailangang makita si Haro-
OH NO!
*I jumped out of bed*
“NO, no, no! Oh GOD! Please don’t...!”
How can you forget Amanda! You’re so stupid! Stupid! Stupid!
Harold? Please! Wait for me... You can’t go. Hindi pa ako pumapayag... You can’t... PLEASE! I’m begging you... Wait for me... We’ll talk this over...
I reached for the door. I’m still on my night gown... but I don’t care! I have to go now or I might not make it... I won’t see him again...
My personal maid was there when I opened the door.
“Ma’am Amanda? Ito na po yung breakfast niy-“
“Grace! Tulungan mo ko! Kailangan kong makalabas dito!”
“Hindi po pwede. Inutos po ni Sir na-“
“I don’t care! Please! Help me! Aalis na siya! Hindi ko na siya aabutan! Kailanan kong makalabas! Please! I’ll be a good from now on... Just- please! TULUNGAN mo ako...” I’m on my knees, I’m crying... in front of my maid. I’m such a fool, right? But I don’t mind. If this is what it takes to see him, I’ll do it.
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“ Ma’am Amanda, nakaalis na po si Sir Harold... Kanina pa pong five ng umaga yung flight niya...”
“H-ha... No... No... Harol- Harold...” Now I’m crying... I’m on my knees... I’m crying like little girls do... I can’t stop. I want to but I can’t stop myself. It hurts so much.
* Nina “Will you wait for me” *
I need to talk with you again. Why did you go away? All our time together still feels like yesterday...
I never thought I'd see a single day without you. The things we take for granted, we can sometimes lose...
And if I promise not to feel this pain, will I see you again? Will I see you again?
Coz time will pass me by. Maybe I'll never learn to smile. But I know I'll make it through, if you wait for me...And all the tears I cry, no matter how I try, they'll never bring you home to me.
Won't you wait for me in heaven?
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Why are you in such a hurry Harold? Why didn’t you even give me a chance to talk and see you again... Is this goodbye...?
“Bakit kailangan mo pang umalis? Bakit Harold? Why?” tears started running down my face...
I wonder how many times I cried today. It’s surprising na may natitira pa akong luha.
He’s the first guy I love. And I am hoping he’s the last... He’s the only person I have by my side.
But now that he’s gone… I have NO ONE... and what hurts more is that he didn’t even explain the reason why he left. Am I not worth an explanation? Ganon na lang ba talaga? Ganon ba ako kadaling iwan?
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BINABASA MO ANG
The Runaway Princess
Teen FictionWhat if.... You have everything and with just a snap. they're all gone?... What if.... You have everything you NEED but not the one you WANT. LET'S say you're RICH, BEAUTIFUL and SMART... BUT you're not loved... Will You RUN AWAY??...
