Unexpected Arrival 3: Resilience (The Trilogy )(August Alsina Love Story)

Slow Recovery

Chanel.....

   The most important lesson I learned from my therapist the day before, was to never take what I'm feeling out on my children. I did not intend to do such but when she explained my actions to me in her perspective, it felt as if I did. That is something I wouldn't ever want to do.

   Growing up, our father did that exact same thing to us. Whenever something was wrong or he had an issue, his kids were the first to blame. I don't want that for my children. I don't want to hurt then this way and make it feel as if they are the reason to my problems when let's be real, they're my solution. I wouldn't trade my two boys and my baby girl for anything. And if I were to trade anything for them, it would be my life, and that's the only thing.

     As I woke I was staring at velvet curtains and a black room. The window was open with the sunlight shining through and all but all I really felt was depressed. Closing the curtains would definitely make me feel better. I looked to my left and saw Trey sound asleep. How can I forget Whenever I had a problem I went to Trey to help me through it. I don't know what I was feeling yesterday but it landed me in his bed, and that's a scary thought.

   I quickly lifted the sheets to find I was wearing his white button down dressing shirt. The sleeves were rolled up comfortably and I had nothing but my boy shorts on. Trey was shirtless with boxers on under the covers. I don't know if I should let myself worry or ask him if we did the do because let's be real... I do not need anymore issues, kids, another baby daddy or extra problems right now.

    I glanced at the clock to see it was about 4 in the morning. I'm guessing we stayed up talking about my issues and I fell asleep or some shit. My kids were probably with Chris last night wondering where tto  hell I am. Just as I thought about that my phone vibrated the times. I immediately picked it up seeing many missed calls and texts. Five recent texts from a while ago and a call from ten minutes ago. When I unlocked the phone I saw that It was none other than August.

LOML❤🗣  17 minutes ago

Hey Nell, I've been trying to reach you all night. The boys been wondering where you were and they didn't go to sleep until about 12. I'm going to keep texting you 5 times with every hour that passes babygirl. Let me know if you're okay? Please. As much as I know you don't fuck with me at all right now, I love you with everything in me and I just want you home with our children. Don't do it for me okay? For them, just respond to me please. Cam and AJ love you. Ava loves you. We love you

ChrissyPooh💓 9 minutes ago

Baby you got me worried outta my mind. I've been up all night just answer me please. I love you and Ava misses you. Please Chanel don't leave again.

My Michael ❣4 minutes ago

Heyyyy sis the guys telling me you're not around and I just got in from the studio. Let me know if you need to get picked up or something. I know you well enough to know you wouldn't leave again and I ain't gonna force you to come home cause I know you will. And as always, when you do come home, I'll be here. I'm here for you Nelly. Love you young bull

MommaDukes😎 47 minutes ago

Hey Chanel it's your mother. Im not liking all these things I'm hearing about you girl. Come talk to me when you have time, I miss you baby and your father and brother does too.

Babyboyyy 😍😍😍😩 13 minutes ago

Mommy ik I'm post to b sleeping rn I can't sleep nd I miss u. R u going away again? I don't want u 2 bcuz it makes me rlly sad. If you c this can u come 2 daddy house and sleep w me? I rlly do miss u Mommy.