A funny little thing called love ( Tsukkiyama ) [slow updates]

Part 11: The confusion

/Yamaguchi's p.o.v./

After a while Tsuki left, after a lot of convincing I made him promise not to tell anyone else about what happened. I really didn't need all the drama... besides it's not like it was difficult for me to hide the pain, and by morning the stinging had gone down quite a lot. So I went on like any normal day getting ready for school in the morning.

"Master Yamaguchi." Flora stopped me just as I was about to walk out the door.

"Yes?" I asked letting my grip freeze on the doorknob.

"Are you alright?" She asked and I turned around to see a genuinely worried frown on her face. "Yesterday you'd locked yourself in your room, and I know Master Tsuki said you were alright, but you've been quiet... I'm concerned."

I felt a painful twinge in my chest. This is exactly why I always hide my pain. It isn't because I'm afraid of appearing weak... everyone seems to already know that. I hide it because I hate this, this concern and pain everyone feels when they worry about me. I don't want to trouble others I don't want them to be hurt simply because I'm not happy... so I keep it masked. I forced a smile despite the difficulty and bad feelings it brought me. "Yeah, don't worry I'm perfectly fine!" I then turned around and hurried out of the house letting my feet carry me down the long driveway. When at the end I let out a deep breath looking down to my shoes I felt tears start to build but fought them back. I shook my head slightly. I can do this! I can make it through today.

"Yamaguchi." A voice spoke my name.

I quickly shot my head up. "Tsuki? What are you doing here?"

"I wanted to walk to school with you." He replied simply with a flat expression.

"Oh... okay then, let's go." I replies as we started walking the normal rout.

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We were now about to the school and had talked little to none the whole trip there. It was kind of awkward and started to make my head spin with confusing thoughts.

He hasn't made any romantic gestures, or even really flirted much since the party... I wonder... does he really like me? Or was I right all along? Was he messing with me, or was he just lusting after me? Is he finished with me now? Done, I have no use to him, no purpose, just a friend, a friend he has to marry...

"Yama." Tsuki's voice broke through my thoughts.

"Y-yes?!" I jumped squeaking a little louder than I wanted.

"You're friend is calling to you..?" He seemed confused, and slightly worried.

I looked around noticing we'd arrived at school and Hinata was dramatically waving me over. "Oh.."

"Are you alright?" He asked.

"Mhm perfectly fine thanks Tsuki." I replied. "See you later." I then gave a small wave and quickly made my way over to Hinata who, to no ones surprise, was with Kageyama. "Hey guys."

"Finally, geez I called your name like ten times." Hinata breathed out a sigh.

"Sorry, I didn't hear you." I smiled rubbing the back of my neck nervously.

"I'm surprised I'm pretty sure everyone else in Japan could hear this loud mouth." Kageyama grumbled crossing his arms.

"Shut up Bakayama." Hinata said. "Anyway you ready to go?"

"Yeah sure." I replied and we started walking to class.

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I couldn't stop thinking about Tsuki the rest of the day, and this time not in a good way... All I could do was doubt and contradict myself. It didn't help that practice was canceled, so I couldn't even distract myself with volleyball. I was leaving my last class when things only got worse and my bullies showed up...