The Fight For Survival (Levi Love Story)( Attack on Titan)

The Aftermath

1 month later ( still 845 )

Navigating my way through the city, I ran as fast I could towards my house. It was never fast enough. When I turned the corner, the Titan was already there and my mom was being lifted to his mouth. As I yelled "NO!" , she met my eyes and mouthed,"Run." The Titan chomped down on her body and blood splattered my face. Overcome with grief, I flung myself to the ground and started sobbing heavily. I flinched when I felt fingers cupping my chin with a harsh grip. My eyes trailed upward to find my mom staring back at me. "Mom ?" She looked as beautiful as she did the morning of the attack. Donned in a brand- new floral kimono, she smiled down at me and met my gaze. "My beautiful Maria, how I've missed you." I catapulted myself into her welcoming arms and allowed her to comb her fingers through my hair. "Oh mom, you don't know how much I've wanted to see you here with me again. It's like a dream come tr.......Mom?" My memories flooded back and when I slowly turned my head to look at her, her welcoming smile had disappeared and in it's place , she bared her teeth the same way the Titans do, her face devoid of  warmth and humor. Her skin was pulled taut across her face with sunken eyes deep in her face. When she opened  her mouth, her voice sounded like stepping on crackling leaves in the fall. " You coward. You stood there and watched as the only people who loved you, that were REQUIRED to love you, were devoured by those mindless beasts. You could have saved us." She hissed.
" I'm sorry I didn't save you please,mom, forgive me. Come back !" I sobbed as she left.
" Your father and I will never come back and it's all your fault." Her voice echoed.

I woke up in a cold sweat with bristly hay digging into my back.  When I looked over to the stable next to me, Mikasa was staring back at me with worry apparent in her eyes. I touched my face and was surprised to feel wetness covering my cheeks; ever since the attack, I've been closed off tighter than a lid and kept my emotions in check to show everybody that I was recovering and that I was strong. I needed to be strong for Armin; ever since the attack we've changed with him becoming the scared  kid I was and me being his rock. My dreams were the only place my walls went down because every night since the attack, I've replayed the scene over and over in my head, thinking of ways I could have saved Mom. Everyday I woke up already wishing the day was over so I wouldn't have to bear the remorse and guilt I carried on my shoulders.

" Are you okay ? " Mikasa pondered as I slowly stretched out my body, feeling my tense bones crack.  " Yes , it was nothing to be worried about." I said. Mikasa raised an eyebrow at me, letting it show that she didn't believe a word I was saying. She opened her mouth to say something but was cut off by another cry coming from across my stable. " "Eren !"   Mikasa and I scampered to the stables to see Eren half- consciously shoot upright with a cry. " Eren, are you okay ? You were having a nightmare." I pried. When Eren's eyes landed on me, his features soften but the disturbed look in his eyes remained the same. " I feel like I just saw Dad, " he whispered. " No you were just dreaming," Mikasa softly said to him as she rubbed his back. A silhouette suddenly blocked my view of the outside of the stables: Armin. I run towards him and hug him so tightly I can feel his ribs that were poking out from under his shirt. Armin is the single most important person to me and is my home, whether he knows it or not. He shot me a tired smile and returned the gesture. Armin looked at the bags under my eyes and immediately his face slightly fell." You didn't have a good sleep last night. I saw you tossing and turning and whimpering in your sleep. " he accused. A red tint slowly creeped up my neck; it was a nervous habit I've always had since I was little that happened when I lied. " No," I stretched out, " I slept just fine." He gave me a pointed glance that clearly stated, " We'll talk about this later." I subtly rolled my eyes just as Grandpa poked his head in and exclaimed," Children, come quick! The guards said there were going to hand out food today." After being starved for about three days, all of us pounced on our feet and headed out form the stables unto the " refugee area," where all the refugees from Wall Maria were being kept, including us.