Črying ćrystals

im taking a break....

Hey

Its been some time hasn't it?

I'm sure you're expecting me to update soon

I just want to say sorry..
I'm taking a break

Again....

I have been smoking lately

I know

Its bad for me

My friends told me that

I'm sorry,DemonKit I promised you that I won't smoke

But I did

I'm trying to stop

I'm not addicted,don't worry

I've been 2 weeks clean

I have been thinking about suicide lately.

Its bad

How whenever I think about suicide,

I think about how a weak person I am.Wanting to escape from this cruel reality

I've been depressed for a year already,and it goes away and when if come backs to me

It gets worse

I didn't think I would be such a person

When I was younger,I was so convince I'll be happy and successful

Look where I am now.....

I'm neither of those

I'm stupid
Ugly
Worthless
Useless
Loser
Fat
Hated
Suicidal
Depressed
Anxious

And

So much more

I don't deserve to live in this world

I never was

I bring people down

To the point where

They want me to die

Its sad

How

They were my friends

They were people who cared a lot about

me.

Is this a suicide note?

I'm not sure

Maybe?