The Beasts

Truth and Massacre

    I've been locked in this room for an hour now just sitting on the edge of her bed. Why would Veru need a bed anyway? Demons don't sleep or shop, do they? The longer I sit in here the more I examine this odd room full of odd things. Guess i should've expected her room to look like this. Black curtains covering her large windows, a twin bed with gray sheets and bedding, a homemade bookshelf attached on the wall holding at least a hundred books, no tv, and old framed pictures of people surrounding the walls. Looking at her room I forgot what Veru really is. I feel safe in here, i don't know why either. Maybe because it looks like your average teenagers room or becasue it was Veru' room. Strange as it is I feel safe when i'm with her. Yes i'm scared of what she is but beneath that reality she is normal. She makes me feel normal too, even before I became a monster. Before all of this, before I met her, I wasn't the happiest person to be around. People thought I was weird back in England and I was alone all the time. Thinking about it now I think that's why my parents sent me here to live with my grandparents, because I wasn't normal.
Lilie came in the room holding a glass of water and what looks like an IV bag full of blood. I gave her a puzzled look.
"Um did you forget i just murdered two people, why did you bring me this?" As i said that my throat burned holding in tears. How are you supposed to forgive yourself for that? Murdering people for your own pleasure. The thing is, I don't remember killing them. I was fully aware what was happening, but it wasn't me.
"Well because you're going to need it" Lilie handed me the water "here drink this first, it makes the blood last longer" I sipped down the water and lilie gave me the bag full of blood.
"Who's blood is this?" I ask looking at the labels of the bag.
"It's one of my patients" the look of confusion on my face made her laugh
"You're a doctor? But how? Don't you ever feel like, you know, thirsty?"
"I told you, some of us know how to control ourselves. I take blood packets from the hospital for Veru" Lilie gave me a calm look.
"Why? Why does Veru still need it? Isn't she your guy's leader or something? She should be the strongest, right?"
Lilie gives a little chuckle. She looks at me like she knows i'm never going to know the truth.
"Let's just leave the truth behind for right now. Plus, I think Veru needs to tell you everything herself"
"But that's the thing, she doesn't tell me anything. I've been asking her to tell me something but she just comes up with an excuse not to tell me"
"Because you're not ready for it yet"
"How could I not be ready? Especially now, I'm a fucking monster for fuck sakes!" I had to give myself a break for a second I was becoming so angry. I take a deep breath.
"Please Lilie, just tell me something okay. Just tell me anything, I've lost everything at least give me something"
She looked at me with such soft face. Lilie parted her lips as if she were about speak.
"Cara, alright i'll tell you one thing. Just promise me you won't tell the others I said anything"
"Yeah, i promise. Please just tell me"
"You aren't the only one"
"What? What do you mean i'm not the only one? Like there's more people like me?"
"No, like as in you're not the only girl Veru has been with"
"Well kudos to her?" What does Veru being with other girls have to do with me anyway? Can't anyone tell me something that actually makes sense?
"Cara, that's all i can say alright. Veru-" Llie stops as Veru comes into the room.
"I what" Veru asks puzzled
I saw Lilie trying to figure out what to say so i jumped in for her
"She was telling me that you were going to explain what we're going to do now"
"Oh yeah, um well what we are planning on doing isn't quite going to sound so appealing"
I get up from the bed and gave Veru a puzzled look
"What is it?"
"Michael is going to kill you, and me, at school" Lilie hit Veru on the shoulder
"Jesus, you couldn't have worded it better?"
I take step closer to them
"You're telling me that Michael is going to do a school shooting, but only killing us two?" Veru put her hands in her back pocket nervously
"Uh yeah, basically" oh geez, It's only been two days and i already want to get out of here.
"So I really have to leave everything and everyone behind don't I?" i say sitting back down on the bed
"Look, i'll take you wherever you need to go and say goodbye" Veru put her hand on my shoulder. I don't cry, i just sit on the bed looking at the ground. What am I supposed to say? What am i supposed to think right now? I'm leaving everyone i care about behind. All because of Veru. I shrug Veru's hand off my shoulder and start tearing up not saying a word or making a sound.
"Cara, look i'm so sorry please-"
"Please just leave me alone Veru, everytime we're together you manage to fuck something up"
I spat at Veru. I don't even feel bad for telling her that. She deserved it. Veru angrily left the room and shut the door forcefully making me and Lilie jump. She looks at me with disappointment.
"Cara, we understand you are going through shit right now but you've got to realize that maybe some us have things we're dealing with ourselves. Especially Veru, because she's been hit harder than all of us together" Lilie leaves the room as I stay silent on the bed preparing myself for this fake murder for myself.