hundred letters - harry styles

Letter 26

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Songs:

Don't Forget Where You Belong - One Direction

Counting Stars - One Republic

Skinny Love - Birdy

Dear Daisy,

Guess who's gonna fly to Madrid in two days? Yes, me! 

I'm so happy right now, I can't believe I actually am gonna travel with Dan. We'll attempt a special thing for spanish authors, I don't know if there's gonna be anyone I know but that's not what we'll have to write about. We'll have to write about the whole meeting. Not about the authors in particular.

I'm really excited, it's the first time in months that I'll leave this place, I won't be reminded of you by walking past a shop you used to buy things at or a street we once kissed in. Everything's gonna be new, nothing will look familiar, and maybe, just maybe I'll escape a little. No sadness for three days, just joy and happiness.

I was thinking of already packing, you always used to pack days before we traveled. You used to pack my suitcase as well. You put all kind of stuff in there, things we wouldn't even need in London. Things like five different types of suncream just in case we would have a sunburn. Or what about the time we flew to Miami, you took about ten pairs of shoes with you.

You always had this cute little habits when we traveled. When we booked the flights and the Hotels you absolutely flipped out, you danced in the room and always wanted me to join you. I always admired how passionate you were, so little things could bring so much joy to you.

And the first thing we would do when we came to a new city, perhaps even a new continent, would be buying an ice cream. No matter where we were you would always buy a little strawberry ice cream. 

Anyway, Dan and I will be different, not because I didn't like the way we used to travel together, but because I don't want to do the same things with Dan I did with you.

If you'd be still alive I would probably bring you something really cute, something you'd like and somethig that would make you kiss me. I would smile like an idiot and hold you tight, and you would whisper thank you in my ear. 

I wish I could tell you all of this in person, I wish I could see your face while you listen to me, I wish I could stop imagining your reactions and start seeing them. 

I always think you would smile when something good happens, you'd say something like Really? That's fantastic Harry. You would only use the moment to say fantastic. And as soon as the word would leave your lips I'd smile, because I know how much you like to say fantastic. 

But on the other hand, I have no clue what you'd say if you read those letters, I don't know if you would cry and try to comfort me, or if you'd pity me. I always wonder if you feel something, I mean no one knows how it is to be dead, I wish I knew what you're thinking, if you think at all. 

Is it true that dead people look after their loved ones from above? Maybe you can see me and try to reply to me, maybe you shout and wonder why I can't hear you. I wouldn't know. No one does.

I just hope you're doing fine, I hope at least now that you're dead you're happy, that you don't cry and that you have the time of your life. I just wish you can hear me. Because in case you could I would tell you so many stories and I would tell you that you don't have to worry anymore, you don't have to take care of me. I'm fine now, I got over it and I started realising that it's superfluous to mourn. You're dead, hell, see how easy those words come out now.

If you can hear me then know that I won't deceive you, I won't touch another woman. Not because I don't want to, because at the end of the day, the woman isn't you. And what would I want from a woman that isn't you? She doesn't have the same beautiful chocolate brown eyes I used to get lost so easily, she doesn't have the same hands I always used to hold. No woman has the same hair, the one that would always smell good and fall perfectly fine, maybe not in everyone's eyes, but in mine they always looked perfect.

They don't have the same voice, the one that always used to comfort me, the one I would hear while laying in bed at night, trying to fall asleep, the one that used to wake me up almost every morning. And they don't have your personality, they don't have a heart of purest gold, they wouldn't have spent so much time on a weak mess like me, they wouldn't have even tired to build up something. No one would know so much about me, no matter how much I'd tell them. No woman is like you, so warm-hearted, gently and understanding, you are special, you're the kind of person everyone loves. And I was the lucky one that you fell in love with. Out of all the people you could have had, I was the one you chose. And I swear, I'd choose you again a million times if I had to, I would choose you out of all the women in the world. You'll always be my first, last and every choice in-between. 

I wish you a happy day Daisy, take care of you up there, remember that I'm here, hoping you have a good day. Remember whenever you're down, I'll be here and wishing you all the best. I'd hold you if I could and I would never let you go again, never.

I love you Daisy

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ayyy so cute of you harry

i ship darry so hard awww

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