Matthias {Matthias x reader} ---Matthias and me---

~Flashbacks~

I'm 11 at the moment plz don't be harsh

Y/n POV
(Dream)
CRASH!.... I heard screams and grinding metal as I tried to move, I turned to my side and saw my Mom and Dad laying there..... but they were dead still.

"MOM, DAD!" .... no answer "Tom? He was my little brother we was so close and I  loved him so so much he means the world to me. But even he didn't answer.

Liam!, NAN? No answer Liam was my older brother who was disabled he was 16 but acted 5.

hot tears streaming down my face without me noticing.
I stood up and I ran, I didn't know where I was going but I ran and ended up on a quiet road I sat there and cried.

(END OF DREAM)
I opened my eyes and sat up on the creaky bed, tears running down my face.
I always got these flashbacks in my dreams and I honestly hated them.

Suddenly my door was pushed open and a girl about my age walked in and started shouting at me,
"KEEP IT DOWN CRYBABY, Y/N CANT YOU SEE PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO SLEEP! GO BACK TO SLEEP!"

She slammed the door shut and I was left there shaking again.
I fell asleep after a while and woke up to the same routine day in day out

Three weeks later.

One morning we were all handed A booklet I looked into it and it was full of questions that we had to answer ( we got this booklet every year) I looked over the first question and it said "write a few paragraphs about your self"

"Okay"....so I wrote a bit about my self,

My name is Y/N and I'm 15. I live in Southern California. when I was 5 I was in a car crash with my family... they all died.
I never got close to anyone else because when I was in the orphanage a few years back I met a boy called Harley, well he became my boyfriend but a year into the relationship it turned into an abusive relationship he would punch and kick me, cut and hit me. I have so many scars from him. A month later he cheated on me....With my best friend!
I have never been in a relationship since that.
Anyway moving on, I have GAD (general anxiety disorder) and I stutter when meeting new people I stuttered around my Nan! So you have to be close to me if I don't stutter around you. I have a lot of panic attacks that one led to a heart attack. I'm on 4 different pills a day. I'm not allowed to handle them because three weeks ago I tried to overdose because I was depressed.

I filled in a few other questions small ones like what's my favourite colour and where would I like to live when I'm older.
I was on the last page and read the question caught my eye for some reason..
It read " if you had one wish what would it be" without a thought or hesitation I wrote down "to meet Matthias/Matthiasiam."

I looked down at a what I just wrote and smiled, I had been a fan of Matthias only since last week and had a teeny weeny crush on him...

10 years later.

I was now 25 and In a few weeks I was going to be kicked out of the orphanage. Each year we would get the same booklet I answered all the questions the same since about ten years ago.
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I sat up and got out off my bed, it was about 8 AM

I changed into some denim shorts and a black crop top. I put on some foundation, dark lipstick some blush, bronzer, eyeliner and eyeshadow then brushed through my long hair. I put on my blue converses and sat on my bed with my phone. Scrolling through my social media..
The door swung open and Chloe walked in she was one of the lady's who worked here, I didn't mind her she was nice, she would buy me a present every year for my birthday. She said "someone is out side waiting for you"
"Who?"
"You'll see" she said with a smirk.
"O-okay"
I picked up my bag I walked to the door, I smiled back at Chloe and walked down the hall to the main entrance I took a deep breath in and opened the door....

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Hey guys this was my first time writing so comment what I should do to improve what did you like? What didn't you like?  I hope you like the first chapter