Prologue.

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by hallowsydee
by hallowsydee
                                    
                                               I just let her stare at me like I'm some kind of joke. Obviously not believing to whatever I'm saying.
                          "You're k-kidding right?" Sa tonong di makapaniwala.
                          "I love you. Matagal na. Please stop saying that I'm joking because I'm not." I said gently. I don't want to fight with her because the thing I want right now is for her to be calm and absorb everything I've said.

                          "W-why?" Maliit na boses niyang tanong. Her eyes are watering and I know where this will lead. Yes I'm hurting, but she's hurt too. And I don't want that. I love her that much that seeing her in pain is too much.
                          "Mahal kita, walang dahilan walang halong keme. You dont need to return it I just want to let you know. Because it is what I feel so stop. Stop over thinking. " at tumulo na and mga luha niya, habang ako tapang tapangan trying to pull back the tears that almost falling.
                          "Hindi ko alam kung kailan nag simula. Kasi kung alam ko lang malamang pinigilan ko. Kasi alam Kong masakit. Best friend kita at Hindi pwede, alam ko yun, alam na alam ko yun. Pero kahit anong pigil ko kahit ilang beses Kong isampal sa sarili Kong hanggang #friendshipgoals lang tayo. Yung lintek Kong puso bumaliko na nang tulayan. Ang harot masyado" then I laughed habang pinupunasan ko yung mga luha ko then I look at her eyes again. Were both crying. 
                          "Gabi gabi akong umiiyak, kaya nga ang laki na ng eyebags ko oh!" Sabay turo ko sa eyebags bago pinunasan ko yun mga luha ko. 
                          "Wag ka mag alala strong ako. Ako pa ba? Magiging mag best friend ba tayo kung Hindi hahahah" I was in deep breaths kaya medyo hirap na ako magsalita but in between those deep breaths and sobs Im laughing.
                          "J-jho." She said in between sobs. Looking intently at me with a mixture of pity on her eyes.
                          Isang malalim na hininga ang pinakawalan ko. Bago hinawakan ko yun kamay niyang nakapatong sa lamesa.
                          "Magiging okay rin ako Bea. Wag ka nang lumapit sa akin hah kasi masakit pa sa ngayon, pero pag naka moved on na ako ikaw unang makakaalam." Then I kissed her forehead. Bago ako lumakad palayo sa kanya tuloy tuloy ang lakad katulad ng pagbagsak ng luha ko. At Hindi na ako muling lumingon.