From the First Time I Saw You - A Bechloe Fanfic

Chapter 4: Talks, Games and Bella's

-Beca and Chloe are in the living room, drinking coffee-

"I can't believe Aubrey did that and didn't even apologise. I should ring her, get her to come back and say sorry to you Beca." The girls had been speaking and drinking their coffee for just under ten minutes.

"No, please don't, plus she did apologise." Beca blushed out of embarrassment. "I mean she even offered to help me up, but once again I was being a jerk and refused it." Beca didn't meet Chloe's gaze, all of a sudden the rim of her coffee mug was a lot more interesting.

"Beca, you're not a jerk. Believe me." Chloe rested a reassuring hand onto Beca's leg, her good one. The feeling set shock waves through Beca's body.

"Yeah right, Beale. You don't have to sugar coat it ya know. I know how much of an ass I can be. I've been stuck with me my whole life, remember. All you've gotta do is ask Aubrey what she thinks of me and you'll find out what everyone else thinks of me."

Chloe wasn't going to pip in that she didn't think she was as horrid as she was painting herself but Beca was on a roll and so she just sat calmly watching the passion and fire admit from Beca's mouth.

'Woah! Dude, what are you doing? This is dangerous territory. You're speaking about yourself, this isn't you. Back up now before you get in too deep and get hurt again' but as much as Beca wanted to listen to her own thoughts and stop this emotional train wreck, but she couldn't. Something felt right about this.

"I know what everyone sees, alright. I know what everyone thinks. I've had it all my life. Ya know when I was younger I'd often sit in my room and look at myself in the mirror and think there was something wrong with me. Even to this day I often think it. I mean look at me-"

'Yeah, you're fucking hot' Chloe thought before the statement vanished and she concentrated on Beca again.

"- I was never anyone's first choice, I was never anyone's best friend. I was just there. If I disappeared no one would know, ya know. Everyone wouldn't even remember that I was there. Wait, no, that's actually not true because they would notice that the freak in the playground was gone so now they had no one to bully. But apart from that I could vanish and no one would care." Beca took a deep breath and blinked, her eyes were becoming dangerously close to crying and she didn't cry.

"Beca-" Chloe began.

"My parents weren't always the best before the divorce. Sure, they'd notice I was upset but they'd put it down to 'having a fall out with my friends' and so they never asked. They were always too wrapped up in their work to give a damn about me. I mean apart from working the only time I ever saw them together was when they were in the same room arguing. Eventually they got a divorce and I somehow felt even more alone. I stayed with my mom, thinking it was for the best, but it really wasn't." The brunette drank the last of her coffee and placed the cup on the table.

"So, how comes you didn't speak to your mum or your dad about any of this?" Chloe asked, her voice was swimming with concern and comfort for her tiny friend. She knew how hard it was for Beca to be this open and it meant a great deal to her that she had decided to trust her.

"Because they didn't care. The only place I ever felt happy, truly happy, was when I was in my room surrounded by my music. I soon discovered, when my parents would see who could shout the loudest during one of their hourly arguments, that by listening to the music and creating music I could block out all the other sound around me. I could block out the cold, harsh world and feel at peace. I could finally throw myself into something that I was good at, that no one else knew about. It was mine. Then when I was-"

Suddenly the front door opened and Fat Amy, Cynthia-Rose and Lily walked through the door. "What's up pitches?" Fat Amy declared. "We ran into Aubrey on our way over here and she mentioned that you'd fallen. So, we brought ice cream!" The three girls nodded and joined the other two in the living room.

"Wow, guys, that's so sweet of you." Chloe said, partly on behalf of Beca because she didn't know what she would have said.

"Okay, so let's rip this bad boy open!" Amy screamed, going into the kitchen to get five spoons. Chloe turned to Beca and looked into her eyes, the emotions were gone and the mask was back up. The walls seemed even higher than ever.

'Damn it girls!' Chloe cursed. As much as she did loves these three she finally felt like her and Beca were connecting and who knew the next time Beca would say something like that to her. "Beca-" Once again, Chloe tried to reach out to her.

"Don't. I'm fine. See, we have ice cream."

'Yup, her walls were well and truly back up' Chloe took two spoons off Amy and soon the five girls finished a tub of cookie dough ice cream together.

XxX

The clock in the hallway chimed 7. At some point through the day the rest of the Bella's had all tuned up at the house and they were now all playing a game of twister. Beca couldn't play, for obvious reasons, so she was made colour spinner captain.

"Lily, right hand. Red." Beca said. The girls were all in very weird and crazy positions and as much as Beca wanted to join in she was happy to sit back and watch the girls wobble and fall every now and then. Lily moved her hand onto a red dot and Beca spun again.

The game continued for about another hour before Stacie said she was tired and wanted to watch a movie. "Come on, we could have a massive sleepover!" All the girls nodded in excitement before there gaze fell onto Aubrey.

"Hm, okay, but we can't stay up too late, we all have Bella rehearsals at 8am sharp!" Aubrey reminded them, but you could tell she was just as happy to have a sleepover with these women.