𝐭𝐡𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐦 ||𝐛𝐨𝐤𝐮𝐚𝐤𝐚||

6. "Rain"

I can't say that I was the best student, but I wasn't bad either. I had to start thinking about my future and what I wanted in life.

Just a mere thought of that made me stressed and anxious.

As much as I loved spending time with Bokuto, I still had to think about what I want to study and who I want to become...

There was a day when I spent all day at my computer, looking at what professions I could study according to what I knew the best, but I couldn't find anything that interested me. I also looked into almost all universities Japan had to offer...

Bokuto came over in the evening, he had bought junkfood and was apparently there to make me fell better.

It had been raining for a few days now, the sound of rain and Bokuto's presence made me feel a bit more better.

I guess.. That evening was the first evening we talked about the actual hardships of our relationship.

He told me that he's afraid of me going away to study somewhere and when I asked why, Bokuto said that most of the long distance relationships don't work out, and that he's afraid of loosing me.

We also talked about the reaction from the public.. We're two guys after all, not everyone accepts these kinds of relationships. Bokuto knew that talking to other people or hearing other people talk about us made me stressed.

We did look for solutions, but non of them were that good. The best one that we came up with was working simple jobs and living a simple life without going to study in universities or colleges.

I personally liked that idea, but at the same time I didn't want to disappoint my dad. I was a bit torn. I had promised him to build a good future for myself, I promised him that I will gather all my will and go chase my dreams.

Bokuto knew that I wasn't sure about anything yet, so he just stayed by my side, he had his hand on mine and was slowly drawing circles on the back of my hand.

One thing that Bokuto said stuck inside my head. He told me something I didn't expect, but I should have.

"I'm afraid you'll hide the truth from me"

He wasn't talking about me cheating, he knew I would never do that. I couldn't give myself to anyone else.

Bokuto was talking about me hiding feelings and emotions from him. I understood him, I still had a hard time expressing myself, I would still push all uncomfortable feelings aside and wait till they pile up.

I promised Bokuto to tell him everything from now on, even though I knew how hard it would be, I had no intention of losing him any time soon.

Upon hearing those words Bokuto leaned in and placed a kiss on my lips. I wasn't sure if it was the right moment or if it was the raindrops hitting my window, but I melted into the kiss.

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Everybooooodyyyy
Yeeeaaah
Rock your booooodeeeyyyyy
Yeahhhhhhh
Everybooooodaaaayyyyyyy
Rock your body righttt
Backstreets' back alright!!!

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-hatari