Heartbreaker [Kendall Schmidt Fanfiction]

Tell Me- Chapter Eight

Hey guys! Sorry if I didn't update for so Iong. But im really happy to say,I have huge plans for the upcoming chapters which you all,my readers should look forward to. Hope you guys will love the upcoming chapters! Thanks for the continued support for this fanfic! I really appreciate it. I do hope you guys will continue to like it  :) x, Bernice

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The sunlight shined down on my face. I woke up. Ryanne and I headed off to school. I still felt sleepy,no wonder,I didn't sleep at all. I couldn't stop thinking. 

Later on,I headed off to the library exactly during the time Kendall wanted me there.

I saw him,his face blank,like he was lost in his thoughts. It's like he was so lost,he can't even find himself.

I sat on the chair near him. I held his hand. He stared at me,his eyes,starting to water.

His eyes were so red. It looked to me like he was fighting back his tears.

Did I hurt him so bad? I didn't know what to do.

Should I comfort him,should I tell him the truth, or should I just keep quiet?

"Hey," He said, his voice was husky. He sounded sick.

"Hey there," I said. Tears rolled down his cheeks. He probably couldn't fight back his tears anymore. I feel so bad.

 "I thought, you---I thought you would---n't bother seeing me," He said, he was stuttering. His words came out slowly.

"Of course, I'd see you, I can't just ignore someone who wanted to see me. Who am I, to not come here?" I said.  

I was slowly,  searching for the words to say. My mind just won't process.

"Bu----t, I was hopeful. I believed that you would come. I don't know what I'd do anymore, if you didn't. I might've had a continuous lifetime of guilt then." He said.

His voice coming back. I could notice the hope, and perseverance in his voice.

"About third grade------ I remember everything now. I remember everything that happened." I said, staring at him.

His gaze met mine. I could see, he got happier, as soon as he caught my stare

"And what about that? What can you say?" He asked me.

"I---- Why did you leave me?" I said, my voice about to break. He sighed.

The happiness left his face.  Before I knew it, he was crying. In tears.

"The reason why I was gone------It wasn't my choice. You don't know how miserable I felt that time.

Being away from you, was one of the biggest challenges I've ever faced in my life. How hard it was for me, to be away from you, you just don't know it.  I loved you so much---- In fact,  I still do. I always have.

But then I forgot about you, we forgot about each other actually. Then recently, we both remembered. And now, all I want to say is, I never ever stopped loving you. You've always have had a part,  a special place here." He  said, he took my hand and placed it on his chest, making me feel his heart.

I didn't know.  I squeezed his hand. I got up from my chair and immediately got out of the library. I was lost. My thoughts were gathered in my head.  

I know, its wrong, that I left him after he got the courage to say everything.

But then, I realized, I've heard enough. The confusion,I'm getting, the pressure I've been feeling. Enough is enough. 

Kendall's P.O.V

She walked out fast, I followed her. But it was so hard to catch up.  I suddenly got to reach her, and grabbed her hand to stop her.

She let go of my hand. "Just------let me go." She told me, she was crying, her eyes were so swollen. She looked hurt.

It was my fault. This is all happening because of me.

And I did, I let go of her. I just stood there. Wordless. I suddenly felt stupid. Why did you let her go? That was so stupid of you to do. Grow up! 

The voices in my head were continuously distracting me. Right. Why did I let her go? I must be that dumb.

Didn't I promise myself, that i'll never let her go?  Goddamn it. I tried calling her, but she didn't respond.

It just transfered to voicemail. She switched her phone off. Great. Now how can I reach her? I can't just go to her place.

Her dad might get furious. When I reached the parking lot, her car was gone.  I sent her messages. Hopefully she'd see it. 

"Where are you?"

"Please, forgive me."

"Tell me where you are. Please, so I can stop worrying about you."

I remember those lovely memories. Where we would look at the stars at night, and I would tell her what kind of star, we were seeing.

Every time, a shooting star went on, i'd watch her make a wish. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

 We had the same wish. For us, to be together till the end.

But now, where's forever?

I remember then, the first time she got a really,really high score on the test.

I took the time, every single time, to make her understand the lesson. Then she took it with ease. I was happy to see it. She was my girl.

But then, there was this one time, the one time I would never forget. It was the most perfect thing ever. When she hugged me, to thank me for everything. It was the last time we saw each other that time.

I remember kissing her forehead, and she was tightly hugging me. "I love you" I told her. "I love you too. I always will." She said.

Then we had promise rings. The promise of forever. We promised to be together forever, like we've always wished, on those shooting stars.

I still love her, those feelings never went away. That's for sure.

Later, I decided to check out if she was at home. Catch a glimpse of her, at least.

But then I didn't see her, not even a sign of her in there. Her car wasn't there. Where was she? She's gone, all gone.