No Escaping You

Shadows

It was lovely to wake up to such a beautiful sight, Rebecca thought as she stared upon the sleeping figure of Sara. The way the light shines from behind her, forming a halo around her already bright and beautiful golden locks; the innocence of her features in her calm and peaceful sleep; they take her breath away.

How could that be that they had barely known each other and had only shared a few moments together before that night, yet there she was hoping and praying that she could keep that moment with her forever. How could she suddenly walk into her life and then tilt it all in her favor?

She wanted to share that moment with her. She wants to know if she has the same effect on her. But after knowing about the woman Sara loves, the one that she reminds her of, she's too afraid to even ask.

It's not like her to get attached easily. She had always kept herself distanced from any potential romance or any emotional connection. It's always simple and casual. But that night with Sara. No, from the moment she caught her staring at her at the bar, then she smiled at her, she knew that it would be difficult. Then she had now forced herself into her life. How could she keep things distant with her? Does she really want to with her? She doesn't know what to do with the sudden and strong feelings she was having for her.

Rebecca decided that it was too early for anything between them. She slowly slipped out of bed, careful not to wake Sara up, and found her shoes. She looked back at Sara's figure still laying on the bed, and let out a heavy sigh. Then she left her apartment without a note or whatsoever.

Unbeknownst to Rebecca, Sara had been awake the entire time. She could feel her eyes on her, but she was afraid to open hers. She wanted to stay in that moment and just be with her. She was afraid to ruin that moment, so she stayed still, waiting on what Rebecca would do. Then Sara's heart sank when she felt her slip out of bed and heard the door creak closed not long after.

She slowly opened her eyes to an empty bed; an empty heart. Was she just imagining all those moments that they have shared? Was it all just her wishful thinking? Was it all because of Nyssa? Not just because she and Nyssa had such a wonderful and strong connection, and an undying love for each other, doesn't mean it would be the same for her and Rebecca. She may have her face, but she is not her. Is she chasing and clinging onto her just because of that? But in the short time she had spent with her, she was sure she had felt something and not just because of Nyssa. She's not giving up that easily.

Sara got up and hit the shower, putting all the worries and doubt at the back of her head. There are other things she has to do that day. Things that she can't have her emotions getting in the way of.

Rebecca drove to work after taking a shower and changing at her place. Her mood had gone foul the moment she walked out of Sara's apartment. She thought a hot shower would help ease her mood, but it made no improvement. Her mood just got fouler and fouler every passing minute. Guilt and regret; that's what was eating away at her.

She didn't want to leave at all, especially without a word. She's not like any other relationship she had had, she doesn't know what she's getting into. She doesn't want any of the emotional entanglement that goes with any of it. She doesn't want to be dependent on the constant presence of someone to be a part of her life. And with Sara, it was already too much of that too soon.

She still wants to see her and spend some time with her. They just have to talk over some ground rules. Could she really do it? Could she be with Sara without letting her emotions out? What could she really have with her? What would she let herself have with her?

Rebecca got to their headquarters on time and Tommy looped her in right away. Apparently, some uniformed cops had found the car torched under some bridge with a dead body inside. The report from the medical examiner stated that the victim bled out due to a fatal knife wound to the neck.