The breakup ✔️

Broken

WARNING
THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS A TRIGGERING SUBJECT

THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS DEPRESSION

Broken (the break up part 3) - written by victuri_nikiforov on IG

The world around me was white. It had snowed in Saint Petersburg. There was some snow in my black hair. It was already melting. I pressed the doorbell. No reply. I pressed the doorbell again. Someone opened the door but it wasn't Victor. It was Yurio. The boy looked younger than I remembered. Was it because I hadn't seen him for a long time? No that wasn't it. It was the look on his face. He looked really worried. "He's broken." I heard Yurio saying. Broken. Because of me. Because of what I've done.
I stepped inside and Yurio closed the door. I expected to get attacked by Makkachin but he didn't show up. I followed Yurio, apparently to Victor's bedroom.

The curtains were closed. The room was dark until Yurio turned the light on. I was shocked when I saw empty bottles spread on the floor. "He doesn't want to be sober. He says that it hurts too much." I walked over to the mess on the bed that was called Victor. I touched his shoulder. "Victor?" The mess moved and turned around. His eyes were red, his hair was a mess and he stank. "Yuri? Am I hallucinating?" It broke my heart to see him like this. This is my fault. There's no one to blame for this except for me. "No you aren't. I'm really here Victor." Before I knew it I was pulled into a hug and Victor cried hysterically. "Shhh it's alright Victor. I'm here now. I'm so sorry for everything. It's my fault that you're like this." My voice cracked. I was shocked. Victor had lost a lot of weight. "I didn't want to eat or do anything after you broke up with me Yuri. I don't know if I was still here if Yurio hadn't taken care of me." He looked at the door where Yurio was standing. I could see that the poor boy felt uncomfortable. "Someone had to. I couldn't abandon you Victor. You're a brother to me. You're family." Yurio gave Victor a small smile. It must be difficult for him as well to see Victor like this. I hugged Victor tighter. "Hey... I promise that I won't abandon you again Victor. What I've done was wrong. After I lost you I realised that I need you in my life. My life is worthless without you Victor. You make me feel alive. We need each other. If we're separated we feel miserable. My heart beats for you and you alone. I will fix you Victor. I will do everything to make you happy again." Victor started to cry again. "Yuri... I felt so empty from inside. I was always sad but sometimes... sometimes I couldn't reach my feelings. I think that I felt the worst when I couldn't reach my feelings. You're the spark, you're the fire. You warm me up from the inside. Without you I'm ice cold and empty." Tears jumped in my eyes when I heard his words and I started to cry as well. "I'm sorry that I made you so miserable! If I hadn't been so stupid we wouldn't be in this mess!" I wasn't only sad. I was also angry. I was angry at myself. "But you're here now Yuri. You came for me. You showed when I need you the most. You're the only one who is able to fix me." I took a breath and tried to calm down a little. "And I will do that. I will do whatever it takes to make you smile again."