Afraid of Love

MARCH 17 1996 - MARCH 17 2014

MARCH 17, 1996...

Isa sa pinakamasayang araw ng mga magulang kong sila Emmanuel at Almira Dala Cruz.

Ang araw ng paglabas ko sa mundo at pinangalanang Amethyst R. Dela Cruz.

MARCH 17, 1997...

My 1st birthday...

Venue?

Hospital...

Hinika lang naman ako.

MARCH 17, 2003...

7th birhtday ko...christening din ng bagobg baby ng family si Lara....

So hindi masyado nag enjoy. Halos lahat kasi ng atensyon sa kanya...baby eh.

MARCH 17, 2009...

I'm now officialy a teenager...

I must say it was a perfect 13th birthday party kung dumating lang sana si Dad..

But he did'nt came hanggang sa matapos ang lahat. So he did'nt get to greet me.

The next morning...He's all packed and Mom's crying.

He left without a word without looking back.

MARCH 17, 2012...

It's been three years since Dad had left...

So para makabawi he permitted me to wear my own choice of clothes for the day. May party kasi and he wanted me there.

It's my 16th birthday anway.

Maraming invited at super laki ng party. Excited ang lahat and they were so stunned when I came.

I felt like a goddess walking like a proffesional model in some fashion show.

I was wearing my converse sneakers , a very short skater skirt matched with my favorite rugged t - shirt with the words:

" Fvck you! "on the front and

" I'm so happy "on the back.

Napasinghap ang lahat.

Nagtawanan ang mga pinsan ko.

Hysterical ang mga elders.

Hinimatay ang mga in- laws ni Dad.

Humagulgol ang Bride.

Kasal lang naman ng Dad ko sa bago niyang babae and we were walking down the aisle.

Sa sobrang ganda ng entrance ko hindi alam ni Dad panu ako pasasalamatan sa pagdalo ko.

In result..He never talked to me since then...ever.

MARCH 17, 2014...

I don't know about my other birthdays.
Basta ang alam ko nakabusangot ako sa lahat ng birthday pics ko. Walang gana kong ibinalik ang photo album ko sa box nito at ibinalik sa pinaka - ilalim na bahagi ng baul ko. Today is my 18th year of existence on earth.

" Happy birhtday Amethyst. " I greeted myself on the mirror and took a bath.

Napabuntong hininga ako habang matamang tinitingnan ang mga damit ko sa closet. Kanina pako tapos maligo pero hindi ko alam anung isusuot ko. Isa pang malalim na paghinga at wala ng isip isip pang kinuha ko ang isa sa mga plain polo shirts ko para isuot. Nakakatamad mag-isip. Pare- pareho naman silang mga damit.