Desire to kill

Why does this happen to me?

Robin's POV:

I shiver as I approach back towards the hall. It was truly alien to me. Shreya had never been so cold eyed. Never ever. I need to tell many things to her. But how will she react to it? What would I do if she didn't react like I wanted her to?. What if she disowns this case?
I glanced at her. Guilt embraced me. I was missing Ananya for untold reasons. The text that I made was only for her. And then I glanced back at Shreya , the guilt doubled. I was remembering someone I shouldn't. I had Shreya with me. I remembered every single moment I spent with Ananya. I remember taking her to church. I remember the Sunday masses she attended with me. I remember. I remember it all. And the sad part is I still miss her when she treated me as just another money flaunter.
I shivered at the place I was standing. I had made many mistakes and I have to correct it all. This was overwhelming. I shouldn't have signed up for this at all. I shrugged and sat on Shreya's couch and stared at the tv. The news of Ananya's death was put on repeat. I appeared on every channel. I looked at Shreya startled by something they showed. I looked towards the tv and saw what it was........
I gasped out loud. Shit!!! Another trouble. When it rains , it pours.!!!!
That was not a good news. Not only my life was at stake but also Shreya's​........

"Mr. Rajiv Arya, do you have any idea who has done it?"
"It's a Christian or something of that sort. I am not so sure. I'll surely find him and kill him."
Rajiv Arya, the Joint Commissioner of police took up the case of the mysterious murder of Ananya. Less known to the world was his ex wife was Shreya Kulkarni, the mind-blowing lawyer for criminals. They were never on good terms since Rajiv used to share all his case details with his beloved wife, but she on the other case was interested in making money that her husband couldn't afford. She pursed law in her tender ages. It bagged her the job of a lawyer. As her husband rose through his ranks, she used the information that her husband collected and manipulated it to release the very criminal that her husband arrested. Both respected their work. But when this became more, their relationship was worn out and they decided to go their own ways. 

I was fretting with anxiety. I didn't expect this person to be the investigation officer.

*Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, but that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry but that's alright because I love the way you lie*

My heart skipped a beat. It was beating at a fast pace now. I was guilty of telling lies to this many people. You know that feeling? The moment you realise that you have lied all your life and your head would break  and wasn't true to anyone. Well there was someone who I was true to, no not Shreya. NOT AT ALL. I need to win her to tell her things. But my gut told me other wise. My brains were trying to cover me up for all that i did. I wish I had protective parents now. I wish I was much more orthodox. I wish Shreya was not defending the case that had been investigated by her ex. I just wish I never did those mistakes......

Why does this need to happen to me?Why me Jesus? Why me?