Sex with me? - yoonmin ✔

insincerity

"So..."

Only one word was spoken yet Jimin was so ready to fly out this room with Taehyung's glare are intense and boring right into Jimin's skull. Visiting his best friends apparently is not a good decision. Jimin winced for unknown reason when Taehyung cleared his throat, gesturing him to come closer. Namjoon who was on the bed also come sitting down around the low table.

"Do you think what you're doing is right?" voice calm, Taehyung raised his eyebrows at Jimin.

"Care to explain, what am I doing that is supposed to be right?" Jimin replied with the same tone Taehyung used. Clicking his tongue when Taehyung rolled his eyes, an attitude that is rare to see coming from the younger. Actually, Jimin know what is this about, can see all the 'unsatisfactory' written on both his bestfriends' face.

Somehow, he feel a little fury bubbling inside of him.

"You think that using your body will fix your nonexistent relationship with Min Yoongi? Huh?!" Taehyung has raised his voice, his fingers curling hard on the edge of the table. Namjoon on the side didn't say a word, only staring on the scattered papers on the table. Nevertheless, his eyebrows twitching like he's trying his best not to get angry, his jaws clenching.

Not backing down, not understanding what is it that tickles Taehyung's temper, Jimin let out a forced laugh before answering, "What were you thinking to suddenly come with that conclusion? What nonexistent relationship? Me and Yoongi is doing just fine you douchebag!"

"Huh?" Taehyung feels his body swayed. "Fine? Boy have you seen yourself? You're fucked Jimin! I did told you to leave that bastard Yoongi before right? Now look at you, begging with your body so Min Yoongi won't leave you, HAH! What a joke it is." Those words are harsh, hitting every senses in Jimin that his reply was stuck in his throat, burning.

Namjoon tensed too when he heard it, stiffened when he saw Jimin grabbing Taehyung's shoulders, rough, his eyes blinking rapidly.

"Wait wait, calm down you two. We can talk abou—"

"Well yea, that's true. I use my body so he won't leave me, and what about it? The one suffering is me!"

Taehyung and Namjoon was speechless. The anger in Taehyung immediately dispersed the moment Jimin start shaking terribly and he fell backward.

Hugging his shoulders, feeling disgusted with himself, Jimin hold himself from vomiting. His vision going blurry and he can only hears distorted voice, more, Jimin cover his mouth when the bubbling feeling in his stomach worsened.

"I.. I hate myself."

Taehyung and Namjoon froze on their place. Taehyung rubbed his face hard, scratching his head, before going forward and hugged the trembling person in front of him. Namjoon come closer with the two, his face wearing the guilty expression, pained. For once, he didn't know what to do.

"If- If only I rejected the dare, I wouldn't feel like, like this... right?" Jimin's voice is not so harsh, but it still pierced them. The stigma once they remembered what exactly that has brought them to this moment. Taehyung, still unmoving, feel his head throbbing.

Who's fault was exactly this aimed to? Who's to be blame? And who's right?

"I know the moment I heard those gossips, something just isn't right. Jimin why did you do that?" Namjoon was the first one to ease the tension between them.

However, Jimin was enraged, "I feel guilty hyung!" His hands shaking as his fingers treading hard on his shirt, shaking his head rapidly like he has gone mental.

"I didn't know how to break it to him, that this all started because of silly dare! He is so in love with me and I can't reciprocate that because everything is insincere! I am tired of lying hyung I can only do so much..."

Silently, Taehyung's sobs are now can be heard. The three once again become awkward, their heads are filled with guilt nobody want to break the tension. Too afraid of saying things that actually could bite themselves.

"So.. he's in l-love with, you?" Taehyung's voice trembling, his whole body shaken to the point of panicking. Jimin nodded heavily before letting out a choked sobs.

"I see the way he look at me and how he's careful after my first time, like he's afraid that he accidentally broke me. He call me petal and his eyes always hoping that I would say... say the word," Jimin said. His stare are now empty, like void.

"J-jimin.. I don't know how to say this. God, we're so done for. I heard Yoongi once took a year off because of depression. T-this is kinda heavy but the reason was because someone played him and humiliated him. Fuck..."

Upon hearing Namjoon, Jimin's eyes widen and Taehyung shivered visibly, their breathe was cut short for a moment before Jimin let out his cry into his arms.

"H-hyung.. Joon hyung is, is that true?" Taehyung's voice shaking and his eyes shrank, terrified with the information he just heard. Taehyung wanted to believe it was only a rumor but the next thing that come out from Namjoon's mouth, Taehyung droped his head low.

"Seokjin told me. Jin said he hope the game between Yoongi and Jimin didn't backfired. I was so speechless because the game is still nothing compared to our silly dare." Namjoon closed his eyes. Thinking back to everything that has happened, his heart ache.

Once again the three sat close to each other, Jimin has already lost the color of his face and is staring blankly into nothing. His lips still trembling.

"Jimin, uh, you really doesn't feel anything about Yoongi?" Namjoon tried asking, perhaps this whole things can be fixed? Perhaps if Jimin love Yoongi back they can just keep the truth in secret?

After all only the three of them know about this. If no one open their mouth things for sure will be okay. Right?

Softly, Jimin mutters, "I like him, but no. I can't love him. Not after what I had done. He will never forgive me and I will never forgive myself. He's too good, I don't deserve his love."

Everyone in the room understand it completely so no one speak a word, drawn in their own thoughts. Yet, why do Jimin feel uneasy about this whole thing?

Standing, unmoving for a long time outside of the door to this familiar dorm, Jeon Jungkook felt his knees weakened. The hair on his body standing and he's shaking. His pupils shrinking as he slowly step back.

One, two, slowly, step, step, faster.

Jungkook found himself running back to the studio he had only left just now.

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