The guy I used to love
His smell lingers
My nose stings.
His laugh echos
My ears feel threatened, trapped by the sound.
Memories flood in
I'm drowning
The thoughts of him grabbing me
Me screaming "no"
no sound coming out
I try to pull his hands away
He puts them right back
He never asked if this was okay
I never said this was okay
This is not okay.
I'm trapped
I tell him I don't like what he is doing
He said that I need to calm down
He is acting like this is no big deal
It is
He wasn't like that when we first started
He was so innocent
He just took over
While I took the blame
He asked me to do things
Emotions made me say yes
Too afraid he would leave
But he never even asked to do this
Even my emotions would know this isn't okay
This is not okay
The memories drift
It's over
But the thoughts
The droning
The agony that my brain reminds me of
Never will.
YOU ARE READING
Grieving
PoetrySometimes it's hard to put emotions into words, so I shall just bleed onto the paper. Life sucks sometimes so read some of this and maybe you can relate.
