Always Been Here (editing)

Back To Basic's

KANE^^

My alarm went off at exactly 12:00am and to say I was a bit pissed was an understatement. What normal person likes to have their sleep broken?... most definitely not me but I'm going home so I'll be fine.

I slowly drag my self out of the comfortable queen sized temporary bed and walked over to my dresser where I had an outfit already laid out for me, glad that I thought to pack everything beforehand and get an outfit out.

Nothing is flashy about it just a black tee and some grey sweats with my grey and black vans, I will definitely be changing again for school once I got home but right now I wanted to be comfortable on the bus. I charged my phone up because music will be my best friend during the ride... R&B to put me to sleep during the beginning and a little bit of Hip Hop or Reggae to wake me up as I get closer to home.

I quickly get dressed and throw my hair into a sloppy high bun not really caring at the moment because no one I know will see me anyway. Running into the bathroom I wash my face to wake myself up also using some toothpaste and mouthwash (my morning breath really stinks).

Walking back into my room I make sure I have everything I came with or brought while I was here, clothes wise it wasn't much about 30 outfits 15 for winter 15 for summer, 30 pairs of matching sexy lace undergarments, and 6 pairs of shoes... sounds crazy but hey I'm not in fashion school plus it's mostly workout clothes or gear anyway.

Everyone thought I was poor at first until they heard my last name and remembered who's child I was, then they would ask why I don't I just buy the whole mall or strip and I would simply reply because I don't need nor want it.

Most of these she wolves here are stuck up beacuse they are an Alpha's daughter...big fucking deal so am I but I bet their tune would change if they ever had to take over an entire pack as The Alpha Female but no because they have older brothers so they'll only become a Luna (not the same).

I'm the only female heir to be heard of in over a 1000 years and as for the first female I don't know much about her unfortunately, even Kane says I'm not ready that I'll learn the whole story when I need too.

Anyhow now I did make a few friends here all mated males in my class though later on I was introduced to their mates. The un mated males kept on trying to hit on me or be too hands on for my liking...nope not happening.

To be honest I could have lost my virginity a few times here, i really wanted to. I even accidentally ended up at a swingers club for mates (weird but all pairs involved have to accept it or the pain will happen) I had a fun time though and even learned a lot about sex that night but didn't participate.

I just don't want to have meaning less....I waited for my mate, although I hate Sean I still happen care for him even if it's only the bond making me do so. What if I reject him and my next mate doesn't want me either?

[Maze stop it right now!, Sean was stupid for not wanting us. He hurt us by doing the one thing the moon goddess herself has forbidden us to do, he made us look like fools in front of everyone we know shit even ones we don't!. The best thing we can do is accept his rejection that way we won't feel the pain of when he fucks his whores not caring about us at all, he knows we can feel the pain he's doing it on purpose. Our next mate may have hard time accepting us because second chance mates having faced some form of pain and trauma with his first mate but once we get past that we can live together and be happy] Cam scolds me

[what if he has changed Cam or will change for us? He is our mate after all] I ask hopefully

[ok look Maze....I'll give him one shot when we get home JUST ONE. Since he won't know who we are and will mostly likely try and hit on us like the hoe I know he is....ask about his mate see how he feels about us, then get him a bit pissed because I would love to know if his wolf feels the same when he takes over. That way when not if but WHEN we accept the rejection you'll feel better about it] she says sternly