Forever z.m

Please

"You're what?" Spencer shrieks through my phone speaker. "What do you mean you're moving to Los Angles? Libby you are joking aren't you?"

I can't help but tear up more when I hear Spencer's voice. I can't think of a time when he wasn't in my life. He's always been there for me and now I'm leaving him. This can't be happening.

"No. I'm not joking Spencer." The sobs start once again and I know Spencer can hear how loud they are through the speaker of his phone. "That's why dad wanted to have lunch with me, to tell me I'm leaving." I try and clam myself down by wiping the salty tears away with the grey sleeve of my shirt but they keep streaming down my face.

"You're not leaving Libby. Do you hear me? You're an adult. You can do what you want. I won't let you leave." I can hear his voice break and it suddenly becomes the softest tone that I've ever heard Spencer talk. "You can't leave."

"My dad, he said that it's best for me to move with him. Think about it, I can't live without him. He pays for my education, my house, hell, even my gas! How can I leave him Spencer?"

"You can live with me! We- we can set up a room for you in the living room. You can sleep on a futon! Take the subway, sell your car, I can pay for the food and the heat bills and the utilities and we can make it Libby" Spencer's voice becomes more hysteric as he rambles on.

"Spencer! Stop I can't live off of you like that. I just can't. you're my best friend, not my mom. I'm just going to have to move. And you guys can come to visit me and I can come see you. We can work it out." My sobs slowly stop as I realize how dependent I really am on my father. He does almost everything for me besides making my food or cleaning my house.

"That's not going to happen Libby. I will not let you leave. Don't think this is over because it isn't. If it's the last thing I ever do." The phone clicks and with that, Spencer's voice is gone.

I calm myself down by turning up my calming music. My sobs have finally stoped and my eyes are clear enough so I can drive again.

When I arrive at my apartment building, I lock my car doors and pull out my door keys. I stick the key into the lock and turn it until I hear the clicking of the door unlocking. I then open my door and take a step into my cozy apartment. I sigh when I walk in, throwing my keys onto the white countertops of my kitchen. I land with a big "huff" as I sit onto my couch. It's filled with lots of soft, fluffy blankets so I cuddle closer into them.

Once I've sat for as long as I want, I move into the kitchen to look through my fridge. Unfortunately, I can't find anything to satisfy my tastebuds so I decide to settle on a nice healthy water. 

After I have drank the water, I set it into the sink so I can worry about doing dishes tonight and I make my way to my room.

When I throw myself onto my bed, I land on the mountain of pillows. I close my eyes just now realizing how tired I am. I roll to the other side of my bed and open my eyes. I am met with a picture of Zayn and I. 

For a minute it seems that we were still together and nothing bad had ever happened between us. But I tear up when I realize that all of it is gone.

It's crazy to imagine how happy I was only a week ago and how sad I seem to be now.

I decide that I've had my share of looking at the picture, and I set it down face flat so I can no longer see his face. I roll back over and shut my eyes with the last thought going through mind about how much I actually missed him.

When I open my eyes, I am met with the blazing sunlight. This surprises me since it was so dark and rainy when I decided to take a nap. 

I go to grab my phone and It suddenly starts to buzz. When I look down I see that I have 8 missed texts and 2 missed calls from Spencer. When I open it, I see many messages that ranged from;