Forever z.m

Proposal

ZAYN'S POV

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"Get up." I feel the soft material of a sweatshirt thrown at me. I roll over in my bed and pull the covers up further.

"Go away." I mumble. I slowly open up my eyes, letting them adjust. I see the familiar blonde hair and blue eyes hovering over me.

"We're leaving in 20 minutes grab your shit and get ready." Niall walks out of the room, slamming the door shut. I crawl out of my bed and head over to my bathroom. I turn on the faucet and let the water run out. I cup the cold water in my hands and splash it on my face.

My eyes can finally open enough where I can see my appearance. I'm still Zayn, I just may not look like it. My hair is hanging in my eyes, my skin doesn't have that tan glow anymore. My under eyes are as dark as a cave. And my eyes, they don't have that amber look anymore, like the fire isn't there anymore.

It isn't, because she isn't.

I put on the gray sweatshirt and a pair of dark jeans. I just don't feel it anymore.

I stumble down the hallway, not wanting to be out of my warm bed. My face meets Niall's. You can see pity in his eyes but he slowly shakes it off and nods his head toward the door.

We get in his car and he starts it up. Music is just the background noise. We don't talk and its silent.

He pulls up into a small bakery, we both get out of the car. It feels like I haven't felt fresh air in forever. We both walk in to the shop and take a seat.

"Hey! My name is Hailey and I'll be your server, what do you want to start?" She smiles bright.

"I just have coffee, double cream and sugar." Niall pulls his classic smirk. She writes it down fast, then looks toward me.

"And you?"

"I'm fine thanks."

"No, your not. He'll just have the same thanks." The girls nods and walks off. Niall knows far to well that I haven't eaten.

"Zayn, whats going on? It's been almost a month. Why are you still like this."

He doesn't know what it feels like.

"Nothing, I'm fine."

"No, your not."

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2 months earlier

"This isn't going to work out Zayn, you and I both know that." Perrie pulls at her hair.

"You don't know that Perrie! We can make it work! We just have to try!" She sighs and pulls her hand out of her hair.

"What do we say Zayn? That we broke up and we never loved each other in the first place? We can't do that Zayn. They'll now something's up!"

I shake my head. Can't the media just get that we aren't together anymore? I take a sip of my tea and stare out the window.

"What did Simon say to you?"

I meet Perrie's light blue eyes.

"I'm not talking about this." I set down my tea and look the other way.

"You've put this on yourself Zayn! If it wasn't for you having to have that girl we wouldn't be in this damn mess!"

I stand up and slam my fist on the table.

The whole cafe gets quiet.

"Don't you dare bring Libby in this! You've got me?" I toss a 5 dollar bill on the table and walk out.