Forever z.m

Author's Note.

Hey,

So yes, three months ago I put this story on hold. the main reason was that i did not want to disappoint anyone with anything that I had written. I felt like my writing was junk at the time and I just got so frustrated. It doesn't help that I was stressed to the max about school, friends, and just staying at the top of things like I always had. Little did I know that eight days later would be the wrost day of my life.

March 25,2015 Zayn Malik left the band one direction. It still hurts saying that outloud, even though i'm crazy mad at him. I don't think I'll ever forget that day. I was just turning in my algebra test and I sat down in my seat. The first thing I did was check twitter, like always to see if there was anything new that I had not heard about. When I refreshed my trending topics the first thing that I saw was we'll miss you Zayn. 

I thought it was another trick that the fandom did when we get bored so naturally I didn't think anything of it. I decided to see why this was trending. Then I saw that dreaded facebook post. Now let me tell you, At first I thought that this was some sick joke. Then I got further in and realized that this wasn't a joke. Then the thought actually sunk in, Zayn Malik had left the band.

How could he leave without him personally saying anything? All we got was a stupid facebook post about him leaving. After 5 years, all of those memories... how could he just leave like that. I couldn't focus on legit anything. Then, the moment when my mom picked me up and asked how my day was, I broke. The tears literately streamed down my damn face like the Niagara falls. 

Zayn left. Zayn left.

Thats all that went through my head and I couldn't cope. I had tons of homework I couldn't do. I took a bath that night and the only thing that was on shuffle was that god damn song spaces. I still cannot hear that song the same way. But then the worst thing came up. I searched up forever young (the video that should be above.) It was way back in the x-factor days. I cried for what seems like years. 

The next day I was a bum with sweatpants, a sweatshirt, messy bun because i forgot to wash my hair in the bath and without any makeup. I was horrible at everything i was good at. Band, (yes im a band geek, i play the alto.) ela, Spanish. I felt like nothing was ever going to get better.

Then this story came to mind. What was I going to do? It hurt too much to write about Zayn and Perrie because it kinda felt like a reality to me. Zayn really did quit.

So here I am today. Its 12:01am on July 1st. So since it is summer, Im going to take this off hold and finally finish it. yes there will be some really weird timing since this started around the end of 2012 and the middle of 2013. So im jumping right in. Libby already knows that Zayn proposed. 

So without further ado, This is Forever: the ending.