gone man » alex standall

•nineteen•

I listened to the tapes, all leading up to mine, the third one.

(In the book it's the second but whatever)

I laid on my bed, nose towards the ceiling listening to the tape.

"Alex Standall, it's your turn. I'm sure you have no idea why you're on here, Alex. You probably think you did a good thing, right?"

No, dammit, I didn't. I only did it because I was pissed at Jessica. It wasn't right, I knew it, but I was upset.

"You voted me Best Ass in the Freshman Class. How could anyone be angry at that?"

I understand that you were upset, I hated doing it.

"Listen."

I can't. I ripped the headphones off and tossed the Walkman on my bed. I paced back and forth around my room debating whether to listen to the rest, but I knew. I had to.
I was one of the reasons she killed herself. Mostly everything else that happened was because of the list.
Why did I do it? Why?

Why?

(A/N: sorry it's a bad and short chapter...how do you guys like the book so far??)