love in the 21st century//jancy

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all this time i was finding myself and i didn't know i was lost

n: sorry, i know it's late. i just wanted to apologize for leaving so suddenly

n: i didn't mean for it to seem like i was mad

n: i'm not mad

n: i just totally forgot i had a date with steve and he showed up and i had to go

n: steve is my boyfriend, by the way

n: anyway, you're probably asleep, so i'll leave you alone

n: goodnight jonathan. talk to you in the morning?

Xx

n: hey jonathan! i went by the photography classes before my first class, and i saw some of your pictures on display. you're really good!

j: what were you doing over there?

n: i was just looking! my friend barb knows we've been talking, and i told her that you did photography so we went to check it out.

n: sorry if that's a problem...

j: it's not. i just don't understand

n: understand what?

j: why you're trying to be friends with me

n: i know, it's weird. i don't usually talk to people i don't know in person, but i'm intrigued by you

j: why?

n: not sure. maybe it's because you push people away. you're kind of mysterious.

j: you're trying to turn this into some cliché poetic garbage

n: some poetry is beautiful

j: yeah

n: sorry i turned you into poetic garbage

n: is it my turn to ask a question?

j: i guess. im not keeping up.

n: is there anything that you're not indifferent about?

j: does that count as the question?

n: sure

j: i'm not indifferent about photography. or my family.

n: your family!

n: tell me about them!

j: you're overstepping your boundaries

n: stop playing hard to get, jonathan. you know you enjoy talking to me, or you would have blocked my number by now. ;)

n: i bet you and i have a lot more in common than you think

j: don't you have a boyfriend?

n: yeah so?

j: does he know you're texting another guy?

j: i mean, this isn't anything

j: i'm just curious

n: wow

n: no, i haven't told him

j: ok

Message read at 8:15 am

j: wow, you're leaving me on read this time?

n: you still don't think this is a friendship?

j: i still don't feel like i know you all that well

j: and i already told you, i just don't have a lot of friends

n: well get to know me!

n: it's your turn to ask a question anyway

j: ok

j: how was your date last night

n: it was fun. steve took me for a walk through the park

j: steve who?

n: harrington. why?

j: wow

n: wow??

j: sorry i'm just...not sure if i should be shocked or not

n: why would you be

j: want me to be truthful

n: no i want you to lie

j: i can feel that sarcasm

n: so spill it what's wrong with steve??

j: well he's kind of a dick

n: excuse me??

j: hey don't get mad at me. you wanted the truth.

n: but it's not the truth wtf

j: ok sorry geez

j: but from what i've observed, steve harrington and his dumbass friends are just a bunch of losers who smoke weed in the park because they think it makes them cool but it doesn't

n: that's so not true at all

n: you're so judgmental

j: i just say what i observe

j: he feels like he has to compensate for something

j: he's insecure

n: how the hell would you even know??

n: have you seen me around campus before?

j: i told you no

n: was that the truth?

j: i might have seen you around a few times

n: what was the point of lying???

j: i don't know! maybe because if you knew who i was you probably wouldn't want to talk to me anymore

n: wow

n: WOW

n: why would you even say that??

j: i told you, nance. we come from two different worlds.

n: that doesn't mean we can't be friends!!!

n: tell me about your family

j: i have to go.

n: ok...

j: i'll text you later, ok?

n: k

Xx

n: jonathan?

n: i know you were kind of pissed at me...

n: and i just wanted to say sorry.

n: it's late so i don't expect you to respond...

n: but i hope that you'll give this friendship a chance...

n: will you??

Message read at 2:33 am