I remember the first time I said I loved you.
April 15, 2013.
My memory has it's flaws.
I don't remmeber what I ate for breakfast this morning
Or what my mother told me,
Minutes before I walked onto this stage,
But I remmeber April, 15, 2013.
Two days prior,
You'd magically reappeared in my life.
And on April 15, 2013,
I asked you a question.
You didn't answer it.
Intead,
You asked why it was that I wanted to know
The answer to such an od question.
I replied:
"Because, honestly, I'm still in love with you.
Notice the key word:
STILL
Meaning I had been in love with you before.
April 15, 2013
The spring of my Freshman year of High School.
I clearly did not understand what love was,
But you had me convinced that I was in it.
Today, it is april 15, 2017.
And I still remember the way it felt
To hear you say "I love you" back.
But I don't remmeber the way your lips tasted
Or the scent of your cologne.
I don't remember the sound of your voice
But I turn around everytime I hear someone yell your name.
He's nice. He calls me beautiful as though it were my real name.
And I almost believe it is.
He shows up.
Never leaves me waiting hours for him to show up
Always calls when he says he will.
I'm only in my Freshman year of college
And although I may not know or understand what love is,
I know I wasn't in it with you.
